Meow Meows Should Not Be Allowed to Grow Old
I could be writing all of the things I wrote in my head during my trip to California. But I'm not.
Why?
I came home to find my kitty Smokey in horrid health and we are probably going to put her sleep tomorrow. Awesome thing to come home to. (Not.) It wouldn't be so bad, but let's see A) I just got back from vacation, B) I need to go to Syracuse tomorrow to pack up my room so it can be painted over the summer and I can move into Erin's old room easily. (Not so okay with that. I <3 Erin and Ana Cristina and do not want them gone. But on the other hand, yay Abby and Alison!)
Smokey is not okay. We came back to her being skin, bones and fur and being a little drooly and very weak. Yeah, not good. Kelly (family friend) thinks the Smokester may have had a stroke. If we hadn't gotten back so late, we would have taken her tonight. Smokey won't even sit with me for that long. Granted that's Smokey being Smokey, but knowing tonight is the last night I can ever hold her again, it makes me sad. She's mellowed out so much in the past few years, she was such a snot when we first got her when I was 11. She totally clawed up my hands and I was covered in scratches for a while. Then toward my senior year in high school she started mellowing, especially after Sparkles had to be put to sleep. Then she seemed a little kooky and senile, but she did a lot better after Zoe came into the picture last summer. I know she hasn't been doing so hot lately, but it's just not a good time. But it's never a good time.
I feel like I've had her forever. She's my meow meow. I love her, devil kitty tendencies and all. I love Miss Zoe, but I am going to miss Smokey.
It just feels like the past three months have been a lot of disappointments and big blows.
The whole being a grown up thing?
I kind of suck at it.
Kitties are comforting when I feel like I suck at life. Even Smokey with her bratty tendencies.
But she's been a tres fab kitterkat. And animals don't live forever.
But why is euthanasia for animals considered a kindness, while for humans it is illegal? Why the double standard?
Just a thought.
Why?
I came home to find my kitty Smokey in horrid health and we are probably going to put her sleep tomorrow. Awesome thing to come home to. (Not.) It wouldn't be so bad, but let's see A) I just got back from vacation, B) I need to go to Syracuse tomorrow to pack up my room so it can be painted over the summer and I can move into Erin's old room easily. (Not so okay with that. I <3 Erin and Ana Cristina and do not want them gone. But on the other hand, yay Abby and Alison!)
Smokey is not okay. We came back to her being skin, bones and fur and being a little drooly and very weak. Yeah, not good. Kelly (family friend) thinks the Smokester may have had a stroke. If we hadn't gotten back so late, we would have taken her tonight. Smokey won't even sit with me for that long. Granted that's Smokey being Smokey, but knowing tonight is the last night I can ever hold her again, it makes me sad. She's mellowed out so much in the past few years, she was such a snot when we first got her when I was 11. She totally clawed up my hands and I was covered in scratches for a while. Then toward my senior year in high school she started mellowing, especially after Sparkles had to be put to sleep. Then she seemed a little kooky and senile, but she did a lot better after Zoe came into the picture last summer. I know she hasn't been doing so hot lately, but it's just not a good time. But it's never a good time.
I feel like I've had her forever. She's my meow meow. I love her, devil kitty tendencies and all. I love Miss Zoe, but I am going to miss Smokey.
It just feels like the past three months have been a lot of disappointments and big blows.
The whole being a grown up thing?
I kind of suck at it.
Kitties are comforting when I feel like I suck at life. Even Smokey with her bratty tendencies.
But she's been a tres fab kitterkat. And animals don't live forever.
But why is euthanasia for animals considered a kindness, while for humans it is illegal? Why the double standard?
Just a thought.