3 years
so i have not posted anything here in three years. i just reset my password and here i am, logged on, writing an entry. the last entry was a sad love letter. i'm terribly afraid that the next entry will be similar.
i recently escaped a terribly depressing situation/relationship. it's only been a few months, but i find myself very attracted to someone i literally met this week. I'm SO afraid of being let down that i am trying to crush the crush. But i can't. He is just unbelievably amazing. He is exactly what I have always looked for in a man. I have never found someone who fits me so well. It's scary. I'm afraid i will somehow unintentionally sabotage everything before it even gets off the ground. I could fall in love, feel like i already am in the process of it.
But geez! it's so soon. It has been two months since my James broke my heart.It just seems strange that i could already feel so attracted to someone else. I went out with a few other guys in the past month, but I felt indifferent to them. This is different, if i had a checklist of qualities i want in a partner every box would be checked for this guy.
I hope he feels the same way.
Why am i posting this on livejournal? Because no one will read it. :)
i recently escaped a terribly depressing situation/relationship. it's only been a few months, but i find myself very attracted to someone i literally met this week. I'm SO afraid of being let down that i am trying to crush the crush. But i can't. He is just unbelievably amazing. He is exactly what I have always looked for in a man. I have never found someone who fits me so well. It's scary. I'm afraid i will somehow unintentionally sabotage everything before it even gets off the ground. I could fall in love, feel like i already am in the process of it.
But geez! it's so soon. It has been two months since my James broke my heart.It just seems strange that i could already feel so attracted to someone else. I went out with a few other guys in the past month, but I felt indifferent to them. This is different, if i had a checklist of qualities i want in a partner every box would be checked for this guy.
I hope he feels the same way.
Why am i posting this on livejournal? Because no one will read it. :)