My heart keeps falling down dooown xX
So things are just i dont know really. My mood swings are terrible. One minute im happy the next i literally think about jumping off a bridge. Why is this. Two simple explanations. My weight .. and my body dont like it. Im in progress of fixing it but it takes awhile and seems hopeless at time and im very impatient. Number two .. okay i swear this boy. I like him sooooooooooo much. This is my main source of upsetness. New girls just keep popping up.. i dont know if this girl is just a friend or someone he is thinking about getting with. He hangs out with her which seems alot. NOT GOOD. We were just joking and i told him i own him and im not sharing and hes like well what happends if i get a girlfriend in the near future .. OKAY WHOOOA when i heard that it was liike somone literally kicked me in the ribs. My heart dropped down way down. I told him i would kill her and i would stil own him he just said silly. But i will be very upset if they go out and she will have to watch her back. there is no way im giving up on him until i know for sure it snt meant to be. right now i dont know that...so im hoping nothing happends with him and her. In the mea time i have to work hard to get my body where i want it .. my hair doneee .. and asking him to hang out with me. Probably around the beging of november. I know im weird. but until my body looks better i wont let me hang out with him. AHH i have school i will write later. xx please dont let him go with her .. or anyone just me xx (btw thats me crossing my fingers ha) ♥ kelly