unsure
why do i always feel unsure im unsure of myself im unsure of life im unsure of friends no one ever calls me i always call them its like i wait and i wait but it never comes calls from other people never come im always the phone call maker i hate this i hate the way i view myself i wish when i looked into the mirror and saw a pretty somebody rather then an ugly no body because it tears me apart always wishing i was someone else someone exceptable i feel i try to hard to be someone im not and if anyone ever saw t he real me it would just scare them away them as in everyone because the real mickie is cold dark and mean and she comes out alot but never in full mode im so cruddy to alot of people but i hide from the ones i truly care about the thoughts the evil thoughts that go through my mind i mean should i tell them or should they remain secrets are they really my friends when i thin evil shit about them do they think evil shit about me omg im paranoid thats the problem im too parnoid about everything looks life friends family drugs everything maybe i need to take everyhting one day at a time like the alcholics do...