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i feel like my life is falling apart. everything bad terrible is all happening at the same time, this fuckin weekend.
apparently i am not graduating. i cant believe i even put myself in this fuckin position. im such a fuck up, i let everyone down and broke my parents hearts. everytime i think about not walking down the aisle, i just cry. and i cant stop, its the worste feeling in the world. my future is fucked right now.
me&scott are no longer talking, as of now, i fucked this up too. i should never listen to what other people say and actually believe them. i jump to conclusions and get mad over no reason just because of what other people are saying.
im moving. im out by june 29th, leaving the ONLY place ive ever lived in, called home, loved. philly. i dont know what im going to do. ill be leaving my friends, and family, and than two months later, once again ill be moving to college, to a place where ill barely know anyone, have to start all over again. i wont fuckin have a real home anymore.
&the worste part is, i feel so alone in everyone of these situations. i cant do this all alone. i really cant. im a strong person, but i cant take on all of this alone.
i dont know what to do anymore,
i feel so helpless.
ive lost control over my own life.
gawd im such a fuck up.
[edit:incase you weren't convinced
enough that im a fuck-up,
i quit my job, and im almost broke.
i need a new one, quick!}
apparently i am not graduating. i cant believe i even put myself in this fuckin position. im such a fuck up, i let everyone down and broke my parents hearts. everytime i think about not walking down the aisle, i just cry. and i cant stop, its the worste feeling in the world. my future is fucked right now.
me&scott are no longer talking, as of now, i fucked this up too. i should never listen to what other people say and actually believe them. i jump to conclusions and get mad over no reason just because of what other people are saying.
im moving. im out by june 29th, leaving the ONLY place ive ever lived in, called home, loved. philly. i dont know what im going to do. ill be leaving my friends, and family, and than two months later, once again ill be moving to college, to a place where ill barely know anyone, have to start all over again. i wont fuckin have a real home anymore.
&the worste part is, i feel so alone in everyone of these situations. i cant do this all alone. i really cant. im a strong person, but i cant take on all of this alone.
i dont know what to do anymore,
i feel so helpless.
ive lost control over my own life.
gawd im such a fuck up.
[edit:incase you weren't convinced
enough that im a fuck-up,
i quit my job, and im almost broke.
i need a new one, quick!}