It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages
can i just say that i hate all things related to Fayetteville State University?
college used to be so simple.
applied to Emmanuel-and only Emmanuel-got accepted and went there for two years.
decided to transfer to the community college and take classes there.
piece of cake.
NC school systems are the biggest pain in my ass though.
anyway. i went to Massachusetts last week and it was great.
ashlee004 was in town for christmas as well so i got to see her a few days.
i spent a bunch of time with anabella1025 and the twins so that was nice.
i hate that i'm missing them grow up with these visits every few months.
all in all it was a good holiday.
christmas day was spent in Virginia with my grandfather and his new family.
they are completely great and i wish he had married this woman ten years ago.
things would have been SO different with our family.
new years eve was good as well.
not the most fun i've ever had but i spent it with my best friend.
Sean wanted to go to his friends party and i had no interest so Ashley & I went to a bar.
and while i had noone to kiss at midnight i'm quite used to it at this point.
every year i struggle to figure out my new years resolution.
this year i decided on a simple one: smile more, forgive people & let go.
i went through my phone and deleted numbers i no longer needed.
i'm working on forgiving Sean's mom for how horrible she was for my own sake.
i still plan to have no contact with her at all but i hate the control she has.
i'm tired of getting mad or upset when i think about her or the wedding.
Sean & I are in counseling. so that's another thing being worked on.
doesn't help that he's right about to deploy so we have very little time.
i hope it's not too hard living down here through it.
the people i spent the most time with last deployment aren't even in MA anymore.
college used to be so simple.
applied to Emmanuel-and only Emmanuel-got accepted and went there for two years.
decided to transfer to the community college and take classes there.
piece of cake.
NC school systems are the biggest pain in my ass though.
anyway. i went to Massachusetts last week and it was great.
ashlee004 was in town for christmas as well so i got to see her a few days.
i spent a bunch of time with anabella1025 and the twins so that was nice.
i hate that i'm missing them grow up with these visits every few months.
all in all it was a good holiday.
christmas day was spent in Virginia with my grandfather and his new family.
they are completely great and i wish he had married this woman ten years ago.
things would have been SO different with our family.
new years eve was good as well.
not the most fun i've ever had but i spent it with my best friend.
Sean wanted to go to his friends party and i had no interest so Ashley & I went to a bar.
and while i had noone to kiss at midnight i'm quite used to it at this point.
every year i struggle to figure out my new years resolution.
this year i decided on a simple one: smile more, forgive people & let go.
i went through my phone and deleted numbers i no longer needed.
i'm working on forgiving Sean's mom for how horrible she was for my own sake.
i still plan to have no contact with her at all but i hate the control she has.
i'm tired of getting mad or upset when i think about her or the wedding.
Sean & I are in counseling. so that's another thing being worked on.
doesn't help that he's right about to deploy so we have very little time.
i hope it's not too hard living down here through it.
the people i spent the most time with last deployment aren't even in MA anymore.