random thought bubbles
came home earlier today from work, and after a nice shower, tumbled myself dry and decided to hop onto my bed. it's my first time to be frank, lying down on my new bed, in the bare, and i quite like the feeling. (i grinded my bolster for a while. yikes?) pretty much was against it for i do not want to mess up the new sheets and mattress and all. but yeah. the bears came down from the shelf above and joined me by my side, but not without giving me a long hard look at my body. not that it's bare, but it sure needs a little knocking into shape. i suppose i'm on my path back, slowly, having getting a hang on things in my new work environment. hopefully, i'll still manage my energy level to gym/cardio almost daily as i used to. wake up, work, gym, quick dota, sleep, and waking up again. wash, rinse, repeat. nah, i'm not complaining. i might not be able to travel much as i like to, primarily due to having to save, i'm real happy to see that my room is transforming. plus i finally found a nice wooden desk so i'll be more inspired at work, just as i've gotten a new bed too with the blackout blinds so i could drift in sleep better, and they sure help.
it's been coming to three months, while it wasn't all that smooth and easy a ride, somehow over this weekend i got a renewed drive to make things work. maybe it's the caffeine, but it's like an auto adrenaline rush. even on a monday night, my mind's so active that i couldn't sleep, till my left nostril bled, due to heatiness (from the constant snacking must be! when i go into this deep mode crafting stuff, i snack crazy lot). it's good too that a certain misunderstanding that happened has been cleared, and we are all laughing and joking together again. work wise, strange but ive to admit it feels good to receive compliments. no way i will be complacent tho. just that i'm usually the sort who will only "come out" after i know i'm good at it, but by then, i also want to know there are other areas i've not dabbled in - animation, ux (it's coming) especially - that i can learn and more importantly grow in.
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over dinner, was browsing for k-pop videos. which probably explained the rejuvenation of late too. and happened to stumble upon this. it's hara, from my favorite girl group KARA (i know the full dance to 'Mr.'; almost other songs!), and her first sharing of her thoughts on jiyoung and nicole leaving. it's heartwarming to know. and strangely, it felt only like yesterday, but it has been almost a year and a half, since their departure. i guess one has to learn to treasure time, just as he masters it.
anyway, here's on path:
it's been coming to three months, while it wasn't all that smooth and easy a ride, somehow over this weekend i got a renewed drive to make things work. maybe it's the caffeine, but it's like an auto adrenaline rush. even on a monday night, my mind's so active that i couldn't sleep, till my left nostril bled, due to heatiness (from the constant snacking must be! when i go into this deep mode crafting stuff, i snack crazy lot). it's good too that a certain misunderstanding that happened has been cleared, and we are all laughing and joking together again. work wise, strange but ive to admit it feels good to receive compliments. no way i will be complacent tho. just that i'm usually the sort who will only "come out" after i know i'm good at it, but by then, i also want to know there are other areas i've not dabbled in - animation, ux (it's coming) especially - that i can learn and more importantly grow in.
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over dinner, was browsing for k-pop videos. which probably explained the rejuvenation of late too. and happened to stumble upon this. it's hara, from my favorite girl group KARA (i know the full dance to 'Mr.'; almost other songs!), and her first sharing of her thoughts on jiyoung and nicole leaving. it's heartwarming to know. and strangely, it felt only like yesterday, but it has been almost a year and a half, since their departure. i guess one has to learn to treasure time, just as he masters it.
anyway, here's on path:
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