all i have is borrowed, but i wear these summer clothes

Mar 16, 2011 18:44

Pupdate. The good news: she let me get close enough to take a picture this morning!!! Apologies for the shitty iPhone photo quality, but I wasn't about to break out a flash camera and scare her away again.



The bad news: that was this morning. I haven't seen her since I got back from work; I don't know if she's just out for a romp or gone for good, but I left some food out and we'll see if she comes back :( If she doesn't, I think I'm probably going to end up adopting a shelter puppy, because this has awakened a desire in me, I don't even. Animals need rescuing, and it's not that I didn't know that--I did! I do!--but I guess I'd just never...I don't know. /ramble

And, because people have been asking for it, a photo of Jerry, complete with the bone I had to give him to make him quit it with the live-action reenactment of this scene from Family Guy. I have no excuse for the shitty quality here, except that I didn't feel like going to get a proper camera and he wouldn't quit moving for anything.



ETA: OH WAIT I HAVE A BETTER PICTURE OF JERRY (kind of) IN MY PHOTOBUCKET, DUH.



DOGGY SAYS HELLO :D

And now, for those of you who aren't reading this journal for today's edition of OMFG Jizz Loves Puppies!!!, here is a Danny/Steve fanmix. I did this one with like, blurbs and shit, but a) you needn't feel compelled to read them and b) if you're not into Hawaii 5-0, all of these songs are awesome in their own right, and you should feel free to listen/download anyway :D That fic I promised is done and beta'd, I just have to run through and do a final check, it'll be up at some point tonight.

Cut for extensive rambling, lyrics, and my patented inability to shut the fuck up about the goddamn Avett Brothers:



Land or Sea - Sleeping at Last
One day we'll wake up and realize
to make any difference, one must simply try
try to use words less than our hands
for change is a direct result of our plans

we've got no stakes in the ground
we've got no anchors tied down
land or sea, there are no guarantees here
we know there is nothing but our fears
of being free

and it feels deeper than any ocean floor
and our lungs no longer believe in any shore

hermette gave me this song (and, um, several of the other songs on this fanmix) a week or two ago. And, guys, it is just…it is the ultimate Steve/Danny song, as far as I'm concerned. All the lyrics work, it's this gorgeous piece of music that manages to be sad and hopeful all at once, I just love it more than is reasonable.

Sewn - The Feeling

Danny boy, don't be afraid to shake that ass and misbehave
Danny boy, I know you got time but what are you waiting for
anyway the dust may just blow away, if you wait for a windy day
but you may find the chance has passed you by

I can't do the walk
I can't do the talk
I can't be your friend
unless I pretend

so give me the song and I'll sing it like I mean it
so give me the words and I'll say them like I mean it

cos you got my heart in a headlock
you stopped the blood and made my head soft
and god knows
you got me sewn

Right, so, I've been in love with this song since the like the 11th grade, and it's one of those ones that has at least sort of fit a number of my OTPs over this years. But IT IS SO DANNY AND STEVE THAT IT LITERALLY CONTAINS DANNY'S NAME.

Ahem. I apologize. You didn't expect these to be coherent ramblings, did you?

Paranoia in B Flat Major - The Avett Brothers

There was a time I could move there was a time I could breathe
the crowded spaces filled with angry faces
it didn’t once cross my mind
with paranoia on my heels; Will you love me still
when we awake and see that the sanity has gone from my eyes?

I got secrets from you, you got secrets from me
because you’re so worried about what I’m gonna to think,
well I’m worried too
but if love is a game, girl, then you’re gonna win
I’ll spend the rest of my life bringing victory in
if you want me to

Okay, I'm pretty sure I've said ALL OF THIS on this blog at some point before, but I have a lot of new followers (HI GUISE) and so I'm saying it all again. Thing the first: I was raised by a semi-reformed Deadhead--I say semi-reformed because really it's just that if my father went to all of the shows he wanted to go to, he'd never be home and my mother would leave his ass. Luckily, he put her in a tie-dye muumuu and dragged her to a Grateful Dead show when she was eight months pregnant with me, and I have never been the same. My love of the music gave my father the excuse he needed to go to all the shows that came through the city state er…general tri-state area… and we've been doing that together since I was old enough to handle myself. Other people do father-daughter dances; we go to Dead shows.

Thing the second: because of this, I have this fierce unbridled love of live music, and am always up for a show. So the first time I saw the Avett Brothers, I had no fucking idea who they were; it was just a ticket my uncle happened across while I was out in Colorado for a visit. So we go to this show, right, and it's this tiny intimate crowd, like 50 people, and Scott and Seth walk out onto the stage. I'm pretty sure I said, "Holy fuck, is that guy holding a banjo? THIS IS THE BEST BOONDOGGLE EVER."

Two minutes later, I was in love. This is the band of my heart, guys, tugging on the bluegrass roots I picked up listening to Jerry Garcia acoustic and fifteen versions of Ripple as a kid, and somehow managing also to have this completely unique sound and just, motherfuck. I am so fucking obsessed I cannot even.

TL;DR: THIS IS THE STEVEST SONG EVER TO BE ABOUT STEVE. And, because they're amazing, the Avett Brothers were like, oh, I'm sorry, did you want a perfect Danny song as well? ALLOW US TO HANDILY PROVIDE YOU ONE. Which brings me to:

I and Love and You - The Avett Brothers

When at first I learned to speak
I used all my words to fight
with him and her and you and me
oh, but it's just a waste of time
yeah it's such a waste of time
[…]
dumbed down and numbed by time and age
your dream's to catch the world in a cage
the highway sets the traveler's stage
all exits look the same

Three words that became hard to say
I and love and you

This song somehow manages to capture all of Danny's feelings about Rachel and Steve and leaving his home (which, okay, you have to replace the word "Brooklyn" with "Oahu," but I think we can handle that) and just, Christ. It's maybe my favorite Avett Brothers song, and this is this incredible version that I just love so much I cannot even, hooooomygod.

Video - Aimee Mann

Tell me why I feel so bad, honey
TV's flat and nothing is funny
I get sad and stuck in a cone of silence
like a big balloon with nothing for ballast
labeled like a bottle for Alice
drink me or I'll drown in a sea of giants

and tell me, baby, baby, I love you
it's nonstop memories of you
it's like a video of you playing
it's all loops of seven-hour kisses
cut with a couple near-misses
back to the scene of the actor saying:
tell me, baby, baby, why do I feel so bad?

I think I listened to this song 50 times while I was writing Don't Turn Me Home Again; if I hadn't wanted to use a Springsteen lyric for the title so much, that story would've been called "Drink Me Or I'll Drown in A Sea of Giants." I also happen to just love Aimee Mann's style, and her voice is transcendently beautiful.

10 Years Older - Jarrod Gorbel

One day you woke up ten years older
taken prisoner like a soldier
you left your home for what seemed noble
you'd give anything to do it over

alone now, there must be some other way
to control how your anger turns into rage

Okay, none of the rest of this song works at all, but Jesus, given this opening verse, SO WHAT. In conclusion: oh, Danny.

Extraordinary - Jarrod Gorbel

The less extraordinary life gets
the more my love starts losing effect
disrupt the peace, the complacency
dodging your fit fueled artillery
need a better view, through a whirlwind of regret
and the passion renewed, with a little bloodshed

'cause I feel better known that you're not perfect, makes all the pain worth it
there's no substitute
though you're somewhat abusive
girl, I can get used to it
oh, guess you're all I need, what keeps me running
and I cannot sleep
without knowing where you are

Okay, this is another Jarrod Gorbel song, because I have been in love with him since angelgazing turned me onto him and everyone should know his music. And also because this is one of my bulletproof Steve/Danny songs--this song just works for them on so many levels, that hint of mockery, that growing codependence, just, god.

Summer House - Gold Motel

Some say love's a burning building
love’s a sinking ship
but I like the heat
I like the noise

we are fools and we know it
trying not to show it
with every look
every face

at the summer house, at the summer house
I’m curving like the ocean toward you
at the summer house, at the summer house today
no matter what you say, matter what you say
I’m curving like the ocean toward you
at the summer house, at the summer house today

Now you all know where the title for "Curving Like the Ocean Toward You," came from, and, god, I don't know how many times I listened to this song between hermette sending it to me and finishing that story. It was basically a constant loop, and I love Gold Motel so fucking much, and, yes, okay.

Back to the Wild - Langhorne Slim

Sit all day pissin' away my time
lookin' into a crystal ball and I don't know why
I'm livin' too fast
to live too long
and I don't wanna die but I don't know yet where I belong

I've had it better than some and I know that I shouldn't complain
though my grandfather told me once that all pain hurts the same
your bottle is empty
but your glass has been filled
and I don't wanna break your heart, but I probably will

Okay, if Paranoia in B Flat Major isn't the Stevest song ever to be about Steve, then this is. Seriously, look at me, and then back at the lyrics, and then back at me, and then back at the lyrics. Can you honestly tell me that they're not talking about Steve McGarrett? Yeah, I didn't think so.

Keep It Together (So I Can Fall Apart) - Ben Harper & Relentless7

I'm not sure what worries me more
The fact that I'm talking to a wall
Or that the wall keeps answering me
Saying that I've heard it all before
Never underestimate how complicated
A simple life can be

You've gotta keep it together
you've gotta keep it together
you've gotta keep it together so I can fall apart

I've loved Ben Harper since he was Ben Harper & The Innocent Criminals, and I love him still in Fistful of Mercy, but with Relentless7 behind him, the man just fucking rocks. I was lucky enough to see him headlining at the All Good festival in '09, and Christ, you guys, he is just. He is just hnnnng, okay, on every level, and this song is so desperate and harsh and pleading all at once.

You and I - Wilco, with Feist

You and I, I think we can take it
all the good with the bad
make something that no one else has,
but you and I
you and I
me and you
what can we do
when the words we use sometimes
are misconstrued

well I won't guess
what's coming next
I can't ever tell
you're the deepest well
I've ever fallen into

Oh, Danny, Steve is the deepest well you've ever fallen into, isn't he? JUST KEEP TREADING WATER, BUDDY, YOU'LL MAKE IT SOMEHOW :D (Also, this song is Wilco singing with Feist. I mean. Just. Come on.)

Perfect in my Mind - Gold Motel

I don't have forever, but I'll live like I do
Feels like endless summer with the light shining through
All I have is borrowed, my skin and my bones
All I have is borrowed, but I wear these summer clothes

Every thing is just fine
Every thing is just fine
So long as I'm by your side
It's perfect in my mind

I AM MAYBE A LITTLE OBSESSED WITH GOLD MOTEL THIS WEEK, GUYS. But also, this song is so fucking Steve (the impermanence, the living like he's got forever, oh man). Plus, everyone's life is better with more Greta Morgan. It's science.

Two Weeks in Hawaii - Hellogoodbye

You've got your airplane
And I've got the plain air of here
You're gone and I've gone insane
Oh when will you reappear
I'm just some new kid
Who can't get his mind off of you
And I know that it's stupid

Cause you've got Hawaii
And I've gotten no letters from you
I should stop whining
Cause its only been a day or two...
I don't know what you did
But you got me to fall for you
I know its stupid

I know this song is about like, teenagers in love on vacation. I do know that. I don't care--Danny's just some new kid who can't get his mind off of Steve! He knows that it's stupid! Steve's got Hawaii and Danny doesn't know what he did and I DON'T CARE AT ALL WHAT THIS SONG IS ACTUALLY ABOUT, THE END.

Half Acre - Hem

A man is walking on the highway
A woman stares out at the sea
And light is only now just breaking

So we carry every sadness with us
Every hour our hearts were broken
Every night the fear and darkness
Lay down with us

But I am holding half an acre
Torn from the map of Michigan
I am carrying this scrap of paper

That can crack the darkest sky wide open
Every burden taken from me
Every night my heart unfolding
My home

So, two things. The first: I am of the honest opinion that this is the most beautiful song of all time, full stop. I don't even care--it's stupidly, stunningly gorgeous. I cried the first time I heard it, and I am not a crier, folks. I didn't cry watching fucking Bambi. But there's just this sense of the weight everyone carries with them, past and future, how we settle into homes to heal us. And I really think that applies to Steve and Danny and, frankly, to the entire undercurrent of the show that's about family, and finding it in unexpected places, and settling in where you don't necessarily mean to.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing - Jack Johnson

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?

This song is on this mix for the sole reason that, in my headcanon, Steve's inner surfer dude is mildly obsessed with Jack Johnson. What I have seen cannot be unseen, you guys. I can't help it.

coffee stained - nervous but excited

and all the things I've loved before are scattered around me on the floor
in two dimensional shades of gray, blue and black and
coffee stained
and all the things I've left behind are roaming the rooms of my mind
creaking doors and cracking tiles
oh the miles
oh the miles
i have yet to drive

so lets go for a ride
i'll try to explain to you the depths of my silence
my answers come slow and i'm so over-occupied when i'm alone
and you see the difference between you and me
is our entire history
our entire lives

nervous but excited (lowercase intentional) is, er, basically these two fierce and proud lesbians an org I worked with in college brought to campus to do a show. Their lyrics are gorgeous and they do that strong-women-rocking-an-acoustic-sound thing I love so much, and I think this song is just…yes. So Danny and Steve, so much.

Til You're Dead - Melissa Ferrick

I'm thinking that you got some sort of hold on me
it's making me crazy
making me crazy, babe

and I know my life it is sort of out of control
but you know my mind goes faster
than any car on the road
'cause I thought love was hard
so I tried with all my might
and I thought love lasted
so I always stayed the night
and now I am in your chair
and you are talking to me
I can see your lips moving
but I don't hear a thing

so pay attention I said
to my aching head
you know this is it you fool
you're gonna be with this one
'til you're dead

Okay, so I discovered this song on the truly incredible fanmix wandrinparakeet did for the domesticverse, and I've found it works fantastically for stupid boys in love everywhere ♥

Till You're Gone - The Gabe Dixon Band

Till you're gone
I'll be by you're side
till you're gone
I'll be you're good time every night
so while you're packing and planning to go you're way
listen baby, when I say
let's keep on keepin' on till you're gone

Because on some level, Steve kind of still thinks Danny's going back to Jersey. Because on some level, Danny still kind of thinks Steve's going back to sea. Because on some level this is actually the most perfect Steve/Catherine song ever. Because the Gabe Dixon Band is doing things with style and use of the piano that everyone else ever seems to have forgotten how to do. SUCH A GOOD SONG.

Enough to Go By - Vienna Teng

So will you let me come in
mosquitoes have found me
and they're crowding 'round my blood
at least offer me a drink
or a breaking of the ice

I'm wanting your anger
I only want to see if I can shake you out of sleep
and bring you out under this flooded sky
at any price

You thought I was kidding when I said I pull all my titles from song lyrics, didn't you? Hint: I WASN'T. Everything ever by Vienna Teng is achingly gorgeous, and this is no exception; I also love the line "I'm at your back door/with the earth of a hundred nations in my skin." She's just so evocative, her lyrics are so…dfhjsdf I cannot describe Vienna Teng with human words, actually, it's all just noises and hand-scrabbling.

Slow Pony Home - The Weepies

Setting free the anchor and looking past the shore
it's a sea of horses on ships with no sails, no motors, no oars

now we're cleaning the windows between us two
funny, you do it once, and then again, and pretty soon
the fingerprints and dust...
but I've begun to trust the view here.

I'VE BEGUN TO TRUST THE VIEW HERE = DANNY AND STEVE IN A FUCKING NUTSHELL.

A Little More Time - Zox

My god how scarred we are
to feel so little in somebody's arms
smokestacks burn up the boulevard
and we break apart
it's the easy part.

kiss me once good night
your skin is glass in the dashboard lights.
and we make up our minds,
two for the last time

I've never been, never been somebody to hold on to
but if you could give me more time

You'll get there, guys, with little more time. ♥

Download it here, folks.

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