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i missed cole's out-of-prison party on saturday because my car was broken. and i've been pissy all week because people keep stealing from me. and my mom is still able to piss me off on top of everything else
about my mom i realized something; i get angrier at her than at anything else, ever, yet i've never had any violent thoughts towards her. it's not too hard to make me violence-inclined towards something, but it's never crossed my mind with her
i've also been thinking about my prospects for the future. when i first came to arlington, my only limitation was my laziness. and my nihilism, but that's marginal. now, dropping out of college has made it onto my short list, i'm not even sure if it'd do me any good if i got a degree in anything. i have no idea what i want to do later in life, and in the short term i'm just trying to grind through my five-year probation, which will probably expand in obnoxiousness due to last monday's arrest. worst case there is they decide to put me in the penn for a year or two. tied for worst is being a fugitive felon, and having to quit life and be a bum
what also pisses me off is niggers showing up at my apartment and forcing me to smoke a blunt with them. damn it all. how come when i tell people 'no', it never counts?
what's good though is that my ice got stolen by the guy i bought it from, so i probably won't be buying any again. ever, maybe. woohoo for pre-aborted bad habits
about my mom i realized something; i get angrier at her than at anything else, ever, yet i've never had any violent thoughts towards her. it's not too hard to make me violence-inclined towards something, but it's never crossed my mind with her
i've also been thinking about my prospects for the future. when i first came to arlington, my only limitation was my laziness. and my nihilism, but that's marginal. now, dropping out of college has made it onto my short list, i'm not even sure if it'd do me any good if i got a degree in anything. i have no idea what i want to do later in life, and in the short term i'm just trying to grind through my five-year probation, which will probably expand in obnoxiousness due to last monday's arrest. worst case there is they decide to put me in the penn for a year or two. tied for worst is being a fugitive felon, and having to quit life and be a bum
what also pisses me off is niggers showing up at my apartment and forcing me to smoke a blunt with them. damn it all. how come when i tell people 'no', it never counts?
what's good though is that my ice got stolen by the guy i bought it from, so i probably won't be buying any again. ever, maybe. woohoo for pre-aborted bad habits