Meanderings...
I don't approve because I don't want you to be hurt. I didn't say anything out loud, because it's not my place.
It will be hard to listen as your heart breaks again, but I will do my best to console you. Eventually the helping words run out and you are only left with how you feel. You must face that feeling again and again. Everytime you think of them and everytime you relive each night.
You wonder why they leave. Do they not understand that they leave not only the country behind, but also your heart? This one last time will only make the pain worse. I say this because I have been there.
Seeing them one more time is nothing to fret about. Nothing will happen. And when something happens, it didn't mean anything. That is the lie we tell ourselves.
We duct tape our hearts together, hoping for a temporary solution to a deep-rooted problem. We do what feels good and what feels right, at the time. It hurts though, in the end.
And I would do anything to have you never have to hurt.
Because there is no pain worse than the pain caused by someone you love. There is no escape from that pain.
And I hope you never read this.
Because then you will know that I was not as impartial as I tried to be. I never can be without an opinion.
But I worry because I love you. I never want to see you hurt because you mean so much to me. I have no words to heal a pain like that, and I know not what I can do to salve your broken heart.
It is your hands that drive your car that will take you there. It is your heart and your mind that guides those hands. And if your tires drive down that road again, I will be waiting on the other end. I will not judge you or bring you down. I will hold you though, and reach for words to make it right. It hurts though, in the end. I only hope that you will not hurt.
~Genny
It will be hard to listen as your heart breaks again, but I will do my best to console you. Eventually the helping words run out and you are only left with how you feel. You must face that feeling again and again. Everytime you think of them and everytime you relive each night.
You wonder why they leave. Do they not understand that they leave not only the country behind, but also your heart? This one last time will only make the pain worse. I say this because I have been there.
Seeing them one more time is nothing to fret about. Nothing will happen. And when something happens, it didn't mean anything. That is the lie we tell ourselves.
We duct tape our hearts together, hoping for a temporary solution to a deep-rooted problem. We do what feels good and what feels right, at the time. It hurts though, in the end.
And I would do anything to have you never have to hurt.
Because there is no pain worse than the pain caused by someone you love. There is no escape from that pain.
And I hope you never read this.
Because then you will know that I was not as impartial as I tried to be. I never can be without an opinion.
But I worry because I love you. I never want to see you hurt because you mean so much to me. I have no words to heal a pain like that, and I know not what I can do to salve your broken heart.
It is your hands that drive your car that will take you there. It is your heart and your mind that guides those hands. And if your tires drive down that road again, I will be waiting on the other end. I will not judge you or bring you down. I will hold you though, and reach for words to make it right. It hurts though, in the end. I only hope that you will not hurt.
~Genny