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SO, having been marooned in my apartment with my sickness for four days; I feel restless, lonely, and irritated.
I wish I could talk to someone in person, because I need the company more than just a conversation, but I'm probably still contagious. And I'm definately looped on cold medicine.
I go back and forth on what happened between Gio and I. If I did the right thing, why do I feel so guilty about it? Why do I feel like I've ruined everything? Why am I scared of everything? Adrian and I get along great, save for the inevitable minor personality quirks that happens in dating. Everything's ticking along all right and I feel so depressed and so terrible. It's like I just can't be happy with anything. I worry I made a bad decision, I worry I'll never marry, I worry that Gio will never be ok, I worry things will be great with Adrian and something like this will happen again... I know i'm reaping the hurt from not taking a break in-between dating people, but honestly I might have lost this opportunity with Adrian if I had and well....it is what it is.
This whole fiasco has really changed my outlook on everything and I'm struggling to reform some sort of belief to follow. I'm trying to find the direction I should be headed in. I'm having trouble believing in anything, even when it's right in front of my face.
I've worked it all over my mind so many times stringing out the logic and breaking down the iirational, but I just can't shake this feeling.
All I can say is, "I'm sorry."
I wish I could talk to someone in person, because I need the company more than just a conversation, but I'm probably still contagious. And I'm definately looped on cold medicine.
I go back and forth on what happened between Gio and I. If I did the right thing, why do I feel so guilty about it? Why do I feel like I've ruined everything? Why am I scared of everything? Adrian and I get along great, save for the inevitable minor personality quirks that happens in dating. Everything's ticking along all right and I feel so depressed and so terrible. It's like I just can't be happy with anything. I worry I made a bad decision, I worry I'll never marry, I worry that Gio will never be ok, I worry things will be great with Adrian and something like this will happen again... I know i'm reaping the hurt from not taking a break in-between dating people, but honestly I might have lost this opportunity with Adrian if I had and well....it is what it is.
This whole fiasco has really changed my outlook on everything and I'm struggling to reform some sort of belief to follow. I'm trying to find the direction I should be headed in. I'm having trouble believing in anything, even when it's right in front of my face.
I've worked it all over my mind so many times stringing out the logic and breaking down the iirational, but I just can't shake this feeling.
All I can say is, "I'm sorry."