Jun 21, 2008 09:35
Well then.
where do you go when you have nothing left?
This is supposed to be where I said "f&*k it all" and ran south, but I don't know if that's an option anymore.
I'll explain.
Due to some political chicanery, I lost my job at Angiotech. While I'm not heart-broken over that, it odes put me in a bind, financially. Fortunately, one of the supervisors has some work he needs help with for the next couple weeks, and he asked me if I would do it, so I said yes.
I'd said if and when I left this job, I'd hop right down to NC to join the one I love, but there's two complications with that right now.
1: My roommates have just committed to buying a house, and have asked me to move with them to help pay the mortgage, so jumping and running would be burning one of the last solid bridges I have up here, and again, could have a cascade effect on the remainder.
and more importantly,
2: I don't know that I'm welcome down there. I've been told repeatedly not to make the move for her, but that's not what's making me hesitant. Our most recent conversations have been very... distant. I don't know how she feels about me anymore, and I can't afford to make the move until I know where I stand.
I used to have dreams, some of them used to make sense. They've changed over the years, but I have no more. Only hope, and that is very dwindled.