inner self conflict

[gypsyrum]

i wanna scream

i wanna cut my hair

i wanna dye it horribly bright colors

i wanna quit

i wanna yell

i wanna pick up and leave for some unknown destination

i wanna cry

i wanna bawl

i wanna ache so bad i can't move

i wanna feel

i wanna lose

i wanna be sickly thin

i wanna be happier than any day i've been

i wanna shout

i wanna move

i wanna sing at the top of my lungs

i want a standing ovation

i want appreciation

i want love

i want an apology for life

i want a sorry your too good

i want feeling back in my foot that just fell asleep

i want to be taken seriously by my own self

i wanna release this tension

i wanna let go of this monster

i wanna know where my road goes