no sleep in heaven or bethlahem
i feel strange as of late. last night was not good. i called the fbf and i could kind of tell what she was thinking, but she handled it so well. love her. and i think she loves me too.
its hard to be calm though, and try to go without for a while. i get nervous and anxious at the thought. maybe, maybe. tonight im going out again; i hope to test my will power. we'll see how it goes.
we're gonna do phone calls. i miss them. and i reserve them only for her. we'll see how it goes.
platonic love. she wants me- not in bed, just as a human being. we had a wierd converstaion. she invited me to something, i almost blew her off, she got mad. she said she doesnt get mad whenever anyone else blows her off, just me. we decided that it's because she's decided that she owns me. im her possession. i love that. she calls me "one of my own." shes one of mine too. thats awesome. this is a happy place to be. ill stop stressing about it now.
im trying to visit EVP but the money is tight. we'll see what i can muster up.
i love jonathan polycranos. he's the jack to my karen with a love of tequila that rivals vodkas ownership over me. hes one of my happy places.
cheers.
its hard to be calm though, and try to go without for a while. i get nervous and anxious at the thought. maybe, maybe. tonight im going out again; i hope to test my will power. we'll see how it goes.
we're gonna do phone calls. i miss them. and i reserve them only for her. we'll see how it goes.
platonic love. she wants me- not in bed, just as a human being. we had a wierd converstaion. she invited me to something, i almost blew her off, she got mad. she said she doesnt get mad whenever anyone else blows her off, just me. we decided that it's because she's decided that she owns me. im her possession. i love that. she calls me "one of my own." shes one of mine too. thats awesome. this is a happy place to be. ill stop stressing about it now.
im trying to visit EVP but the money is tight. we'll see what i can muster up.
i love jonathan polycranos. he's the jack to my karen with a love of tequila that rivals vodkas ownership over me. hes one of my happy places.
cheers.