finally he amends himself!
finally, this guy i am kinda sorta talking too/fallin for (scary!!) explains why he never calls and hardly ever talks when he does. He says, "i have something to tell you" and by this point i'm like omg what's he about to say, i hope he doesn't ask me out oficially or anthing, i don't think i'm ready, and he says, "i just wanted to let you know that i don't like phones and i hate talking on them so that's why i hardly ever talk to you and stuff when i call, i don't want you to think that i don't wanna talk to you or anything." It was so sweet and unexpected. I'm happy he said that thought cuz it was really starting to make me mad, lol.
it's been along time since i've fallin asleep cuddling with a guy while watching a movie, i missed it so much. why can't i just let it be that way, and stop having this nagging feeling in the back of my mind telling me "don't fall for him, don't let him know you actually care" I wish that someday, i will just know and not have any doubts, i wonder if that will ever happen. For now i guess i just have to let things take their course and hope it all turns out for the better. well that's easy to say, but oh how hard it is to actually believe.
it's been along time since i've fallin asleep cuddling with a guy while watching a movie, i missed it so much. why can't i just let it be that way, and stop having this nagging feeling in the back of my mind telling me "don't fall for him, don't let him know you actually care" I wish that someday, i will just know and not have any doubts, i wonder if that will ever happen. For now i guess i just have to let things take their course and hope it all turns out for the better. well that's easy to say, but oh how hard it is to actually believe.