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List five truths. Five things that are on your mind. Good, bad, it matters not. Lift some weight off. Then, tag people to do the same.
Tag! meadowgirl, lucy_jane, scoobnel, shesabutterfly, n0sebleed, azladybug*I sniff books. And. I look for stains in them. And, the more ragged, the better. If I come across a smelly, ragged book with someone else's coffee in it...I have to have it. Like, HAVE TO. If ( Read more... )
Tag! meadowgirl, lucy_jane, scoobnel, shesabutterfly, n0sebleed, azladybug*I sniff books. And. I look for stains in them. And, the more ragged, the better. If I come across a smelly, ragged book with someone else's coffee in it...I have to have it. Like, HAVE TO. If ( Read more... )
1. book sniffing. ok- this is a NON me too. Unless the book comes from someone i know, this actually freaks me out. I'm a germaphobe. I found a little shard of a candycane in one of my books the other day and actually remembered eating it while reading it like three years ago. it was my own book and my own candycane, it that even grossed me out. hehe. YOU FREAK BOOK SNIFFER! oh, but now that you said that, i have a present for you. I DO agree about inscriptions and things written IN books. i LOVE that. sean (didisaythat) from LJ gave me a book of poems where a woman had written something to her boyfriend like "Hopefully we'll be together this time next year..." and a few more things, and it was so intriguing. anyway, i have something i found at a thrift store to send you. i'll remind myself after my road trip, next week.
2. i think i'm gonna die soon, too. Like you, i've never seen old age for myself. that's why i feel like i grew up too quick, wanted a boyfriend too quick, and all that stuff. i feel a sense of urgency to see and do all i can because i'm expecting not to see 40. i actually felt recently that with all my happiness, that i must be ready to die. Do you get a feeling of WHEN or HOW? I'm curious to know more of your thoughts on this. My friend jeff felt this way about himself too, and he died at 27. I'm sorry about your friend Keith?! :(
3. this is the only other one we don't have in common. i have wanted to get married since i was 11. i have always felt like i wanted to "belong" to someone. i'm a damn scorpio though and in love with love, and too loyal to men, so that's why. the last time i was in the hospital, last month, the thought that kept going through my head was "and i'm not MARRIED yet!! i am going to die without having BELONGED to someone!" hahah. what a drama-nerd. I wish i was like you and didn't feel that need. i've always respected that about you more than anything. i don't know how to be NOT guy crazy.
4. OFFicE SUPPLIES! OMG YES!!!!!!!!!! hahah enough said. Staples, target, walgreens- paper, notebooks, empty journals, glitter pens. This gives me more happymail present ideas for you. I've been needing to send you mail for like 19 years now. i will this month.
lastly, more than anything- the crying problem. ME TOOOO. in both ways. my ears tear up with happy overwhelming "love" moments of connecting, talking to friends, etc. I cry at very weird times and go numb or laugh when i'm supposed to cry. A woman stepped in front of a car last month, right in front of our apartment. she was in her barefeet, and stepped in front of a car. she died instantly and laid there on the sidewalk and i didn't cry at all. I stared numbly out the window, and couldn't cry, even though i felt such a deep overwhleming sadness for her. Then, fast forward to something bizarre, and i will cry. And laughing at funerals, yes. it's bizarre too. and i laughed when someone i knew got hurt right in front of me once- also in some weird "i dont know how to react hysterics." we. are. so. strange. but i love us.
and don't even get me started on animal movies.
oh for gawds sake. i can't deal with it. i can't watch ET dying either. old yeller almost sent me over the deep end. so did "Where the red fern grows" and anything involving a dog or deer or cat or anything.
can't do it.
glad you said about the sled dog movie. i won't watch it now.
DONT watch march of the penguins. I WAS SO MAD AT THAT MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYONE told me to watch it and it was just THE MOST DEPRESSING THING I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE.
sorry i just hijacked your journal entry and "metooed" it. but i am always so impressed at how alike and connected we are that i get giddy and have to say it.
love you much,
madi
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THANK YOU for the March of the Penguins warning too. Lots of people have told me to watch it, and they market that crap like its for animal lovers....WHATEVER...its like TORTURE. And I'm not even exaggerating. THANKS. I won't watch it!
It makes me so happy to see your name in my journal. Don't apologize! I feel so special when you comment! :)
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