Bad Student Is Me
So I have been a totally bad student this semester. I believe it started with the displacment. First from my house to my apt, then to the hotel, then the apt then back to m apt, never getting a chance to really settle in anywhere. On top of that, I have no little motivation to do well in school, and I have a lot of motivation to be with my new friends and hang out. On top of that, I had marching band and did renfest which totally ate up all my time, especially my weekends.
None of this would have actually prevented me from doing my work, but I had inner turmoil. I felt so unsettled by everything, especially the not having my apt the way I wanted in and the amount of hard reading and hard work, that I just couldn't be motivated to do anything, especially write good papers.
In my Latin american History class, I got a good book, for the major book review, but just couldn't write the paper. I finally knew I had to get the paper done, and just wrote something, firmly adhering to the philosophy, anything as a grade is better than a zero. I had such potential to make an A in that class, but with a 70 as like 30+% of my grade it will be hard. But I am glad the paper was voer with.
I still haven't written the main paper for my fairy tale lit class, and I had hoped to get that in today, but I believe the teacher will still accept it on monday, so I am writing it tomorrow or sunday.
My biggest disappointment is in my British History class. Also, such great potential, but now I'll probably fail. It won't be a huge deal, because it will be my only F, if I do fail, and I really don't care horribly about my grades, but I so didn't want to disappoint that teacher whom I will be seeing a lot of. She's my advisor, and also she teaches many of the classes I love. So here's what happens. Our grades are 3 book reviews for 45 % and a research paper for 20% on top of tests and whatnot. I made a C on the first paper, which was esy--Beowulf. The second paper I stressed over, but the book was so hard to understand, and I had so little time I didn't do it. I got a huge break, because she said only 2 papers would count. I was gonna due the third one, but I found out the day before it was due, it was due that day. I had it a week off. It was due the day after my major book review for my other class. I was still gonna write it, but the book was so long, I had no time to read it and I knew I couldn't write a good paper, without reading it, so I settled with making the possibly highest grade of a 77.5. I still had potential to make a C. Well I didn't write my research paper on Tues. Wed. or even Turs., the day it was due, because I wasn't motivated and I was a bit overwhelmed. I sit down to write it today around 1. It is due no later than 5. I was having problems find the internet sources I needed and a thesis, so I finally start leaving myself 2 hours to write it. More like an hour and a half to write 8 pages. 4.30 rolls around and I have barely 3 pages of text. So sticking to my philosophy of anything's better than a zero, I outline the rest of my paper, submit it online and go to print it out. With less than 15 minutes left, I don't have enough change to print it. I don't know what to do. I try borrowing a quarter, but to no avail. It was a crap paper anyway, and way too short. That's when 5 oclock rolled around. No hardcopy, no grade right? I suck.
But here's my plan...I am going to finish my paper and make it as good as possible. I will then resubmit it online, and put a hardcopy under the office door. She probably still won't accept it and I'll still fail, but what can you do?.....What can you do when it's this late?
I will still take the final...Hey there's still a snowball's chance you know. But oh how stressful this all has been.
I am so looking forward to a stress free clean slate next semester.
None of this would have actually prevented me from doing my work, but I had inner turmoil. I felt so unsettled by everything, especially the not having my apt the way I wanted in and the amount of hard reading and hard work, that I just couldn't be motivated to do anything, especially write good papers.
In my Latin american History class, I got a good book, for the major book review, but just couldn't write the paper. I finally knew I had to get the paper done, and just wrote something, firmly adhering to the philosophy, anything as a grade is better than a zero. I had such potential to make an A in that class, but with a 70 as like 30+% of my grade it will be hard. But I am glad the paper was voer with.
I still haven't written the main paper for my fairy tale lit class, and I had hoped to get that in today, but I believe the teacher will still accept it on monday, so I am writing it tomorrow or sunday.
My biggest disappointment is in my British History class. Also, such great potential, but now I'll probably fail. It won't be a huge deal, because it will be my only F, if I do fail, and I really don't care horribly about my grades, but I so didn't want to disappoint that teacher whom I will be seeing a lot of. She's my advisor, and also she teaches many of the classes I love. So here's what happens. Our grades are 3 book reviews for 45 % and a research paper for 20% on top of tests and whatnot. I made a C on the first paper, which was esy--Beowulf. The second paper I stressed over, but the book was so hard to understand, and I had so little time I didn't do it. I got a huge break, because she said only 2 papers would count. I was gonna due the third one, but I found out the day before it was due, it was due that day. I had it a week off. It was due the day after my major book review for my other class. I was still gonna write it, but the book was so long, I had no time to read it and I knew I couldn't write a good paper, without reading it, so I settled with making the possibly highest grade of a 77.5. I still had potential to make a C. Well I didn't write my research paper on Tues. Wed. or even Turs., the day it was due, because I wasn't motivated and I was a bit overwhelmed. I sit down to write it today around 1. It is due no later than 5. I was having problems find the internet sources I needed and a thesis, so I finally start leaving myself 2 hours to write it. More like an hour and a half to write 8 pages. 4.30 rolls around and I have barely 3 pages of text. So sticking to my philosophy of anything's better than a zero, I outline the rest of my paper, submit it online and go to print it out. With less than 15 minutes left, I don't have enough change to print it. I don't know what to do. I try borrowing a quarter, but to no avail. It was a crap paper anyway, and way too short. That's when 5 oclock rolled around. No hardcopy, no grade right? I suck.
But here's my plan...I am going to finish my paper and make it as good as possible. I will then resubmit it online, and put a hardcopy under the office door. She probably still won't accept it and I'll still fail, but what can you do?.....What can you do when it's this late?
I will still take the final...Hey there's still a snowball's chance you know. But oh how stressful this all has been.
I am so looking forward to a stress free clean slate next semester.