Virgo with strong Aquarius tendencies...
ugh, my past week has been a mash up of ridiculous emotions and stress.
I don't even want to think about it. If I don't think about it, it doesn't exist.
I'd feel like i'd be repeating all that's gone on, I've already told everyone else so I migth as well save me the time.
Anyway, I've been feeling really crappy about myself lately. The body image issues have gotten really bad.
I don't know how to handle the fact that I think my life would be so much better if I was prettier/thinner/ etc...
I think it may have to do with the issue that John has made an appearance in my life.
It's really weird that he even imed me, much less asked me to hang out. I can't help wondering if it was with someone else I knew or whatever. We didn't bother with the details and haven't spoken since. I sort of try to grill Mike for information but I need to stop.
I'd just be using him.
Today, my friend Sylwia told me I push people away. Being raised by an Aquarius makes me push people away and complain; just like them. I'm a virgo...but hey, the aquarius tendencies are there. This is completely true. I either get bothered, annoyed, or just plain old bored with people so I much rather just cut off all contact. Unfortunately, Mike is getting extremely close to crossing that barrier.
I really don't want it to happen and I really hope that my friends aren't right in saying he likes me. I don't need that type of stress or frustration.
Inside I know, I'd just go "WTF? Why isn't it anyone I LIKE?"
I guess that's the way the world works, it's extremely unfair.
I just want to be happy.
I don't even want to think about it. If I don't think about it, it doesn't exist.
I'd feel like i'd be repeating all that's gone on, I've already told everyone else so I migth as well save me the time.
Anyway, I've been feeling really crappy about myself lately. The body image issues have gotten really bad.
I don't know how to handle the fact that I think my life would be so much better if I was prettier/thinner/ etc...
I think it may have to do with the issue that John has made an appearance in my life.
It's really weird that he even imed me, much less asked me to hang out. I can't help wondering if it was with someone else I knew or whatever. We didn't bother with the details and haven't spoken since. I sort of try to grill Mike for information but I need to stop.
I'd just be using him.
Today, my friend Sylwia told me I push people away. Being raised by an Aquarius makes me push people away and complain; just like them. I'm a virgo...but hey, the aquarius tendencies are there. This is completely true. I either get bothered, annoyed, or just plain old bored with people so I much rather just cut off all contact. Unfortunately, Mike is getting extremely close to crossing that barrier.
I really don't want it to happen and I really hope that my friends aren't right in saying he likes me. I don't need that type of stress or frustration.
Inside I know, I'd just go "WTF? Why isn't it anyone I LIKE?"
I guess that's the way the world works, it's extremely unfair.
I just want to be happy.