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Lois and I were at a Spa last Sunday and had an interesting conversation.
After the rather disappointing epilogue to the Avatar finale (sidenote: i'll get to my protestations about it in a bit), I asked her to write me some fanfic to erase that ending in my head.
She said, "I no longer write for pleasure."
And I realized that the same is true for me.
I mean don't get me wrong I still love to write, but when you write for a living-- what used to be something that I loved to do to take a break, became something I needed to take a break from.
It's one of the reasons this is the first time I got into blogging (and I haven't even truly embraced it all the way).
And I'm actually missing it... getting immersed in a world of my creation, crafting a plot that makes my head wonder and my heart race, waiting to see where a character will take me as I let them loose in the playground I created.
I haven't seen that side of myself for a long while. Maybe we need to get reacquainted.
Sigh.
But I don't know if I have the energy for all this right now.
I am actually tempted to join this challenge thingie kamikazeremix just so I could be sortta forced to write. Maybe jumpstart my fiction again.
But it also scares me.
So I am in a sort of waiting game.
In the meantime, I am in awe with the kind of quality work that people are churning out in the Supernatural fandom. It's the first time I've ever actually gotten into fanfic but it sure makes waiting for Season bearable.
After the rather disappointing epilogue to the Avatar finale (sidenote: i'll get to my protestations about it in a bit), I asked her to write me some fanfic to erase that ending in my head.
She said, "I no longer write for pleasure."
And I realized that the same is true for me.
I mean don't get me wrong I still love to write, but when you write for a living-- what used to be something that I loved to do to take a break, became something I needed to take a break from.
It's one of the reasons this is the first time I got into blogging (and I haven't even truly embraced it all the way).
And I'm actually missing it... getting immersed in a world of my creation, crafting a plot that makes my head wonder and my heart race, waiting to see where a character will take me as I let them loose in the playground I created.
I haven't seen that side of myself for a long while. Maybe we need to get reacquainted.
Sigh.
But I don't know if I have the energy for all this right now.
I am actually tempted to join this challenge thingie kamikazeremix just so I could be sortta forced to write. Maybe jumpstart my fiction again.
But it also scares me.
So I am in a sort of waiting game.
In the meantime, I am in awe with the kind of quality work that people are churning out in the Supernatural fandom. It's the first time I've ever actually gotten into fanfic but it sure makes waiting for Season bearable.