Spring!

[gymnasty756]

So yeah i very seldom update this thing but live journal will always have a place in my heart haha. OBVI myspace has taken over my life but whatever, not all the rapists or random kids get to look at this so its better so say personal stuff here...SO my spring has been jam-packed with SHAT. i just joined crew again and we had an erg test today. TORTURE. i got a 9:08 booo i suck i hate being short..and i was just DIEING o man. i need to work out more i. i want a six pack and like perfect muscular bod..i don't even care if guys don't think thats attractive i would just be so happy with my body :] but i also had my first softbal practice today..OMG i SUCK ASS!!!! soo badly haha but our team is going to dominate again this year. our goal is undefeated. we could prob do it no problem 8] haha but yeah for once im going to post a different live journal entrie where im not like in love with a different guy! haha yeah im still not over matt LINCOLN (or matt to the 3rd power as some poeple would put it..or ab boy..or just "the gymnast guy") haha whatever u wanna call him im still like head over heels for him. but we broke up in like mid december becasue of the distance and shit like that. i thought he just didn't have the same feelings for me any more. i was devistated to the max. and i actually was totally over it for a while. like i would go weeks without him ever crossing my mind. life was good. but ignorant of the feelings that were dormant within my heart. so i dunno how it happened but we just started talking again. now we talk a lot a lot and all these old feelings have awakened. i kinda sucks cause it makes we miss him and want to be with him so bad. but he would never let that happen..whatever. if he doesn't wanna try its not worth my extra effort..but im gonna keep wishing everyday that it can work SOMEDAY. i mean if i still feel the way i do. who knows how i'll feel in like a month, or a year. i don't knowww. but this kid def has somthing special about him that im not easily willing to let go. not without a fight :] but yeah i also got accepted into the St. Pauls advanced study program this summer. im kinda ambivalent as to whether i wanna go or not. cause its like my whole summer devoted to school.. and MORE school after this gruesome junior year eww. but its also a great opportunity and just somthing fabulous to put on a college application hehe<3 but yeah i am going and im going to engeneering..booo im gonna be with all the hott nerds..i love it. but thats about it for now. actually i could add so much more but i just remebered i should get going on my homework and stop procrastinating haha. <--which reminds me im currently 10th in our class! :D yay i made it to the top 10!! hopefully i can stay there..its such tough competition..ill try my best tho..kay im really done tho.. Love you all! <33

-Greac<3