what happened to me??
i live in a house with 4 other girls, all of who have boyfriends. i am a loner. it seems to me that all of my other friends have boyfriends too. what the hell happened to me?? i dont think anyone knows what it feels like to have ALL of your friends and roommates have boyfriends and you dont. i constantly feel like a third wheel and its kinda irritating. not only am i like the only one on earth thats single, its soooo hard to find someone good too. its so fucking annoying like its starting to get real old real fast. what makes me even more scared is the fact that my uncle (who is in his mid 40s) is still dating around aka technically single and he told my cousin and i that he ALWAYS had a girlfriend in high school. umm, hello? that was ME in high school! always had a boyfriend. and now look where i am? all by my lonesome. this is so stupid. for that fact alone i hate life right now.
it also didnt help to find out that one of my friends who i THOUGHT was a really good friend says to someone 'i know im not gonna see jaime at all this semester.' first of all, who the fuck says that in the first place? thats so ignorant. and considering she lives with my best friends, idk why she had the balls to say that. secondly, thinking in that mind frame is just setting yourself up for acting that way. so it makes me think that if she said that out loud to one of my best friends that she honestly doesnt want to see or hang out with me. and you know whatever she said couldve just been a passing by thing which she thought was no big deal but it honestly kinda hurt my feelings to hear that she said it. especially since we were roommates last year. it just sucks to think that one of your friends already doesnt want to hang out with you. and thirdly, the only reason she wouldnt see me is if she doesnt go out (which i heard is a habit of hers already). let me tell you, this is the 3rd week of school and ive been out so much. im always out on thurs and fri, and most mondays (i dont have class tues or thurs so dont think im stupid). plus like i said before, she lives with my best friends here. so...like i said...what the hell!!
sometimes i just dont understand the way people think. i dont know why people would want to live a life of pessimism because it just makes people not want to be around you. i always try to have a positive outlook on life but when this kinda shit happens, how can i not at least vent about it?
i a bit better now that ive written this. but it really irks me that someone would even say something that stupid. it makes me reevaluate my friendship with them and at this point, im not in the mood to have someone like that in my life. so whatever.
im out. peace
it also didnt help to find out that one of my friends who i THOUGHT was a really good friend says to someone 'i know im not gonna see jaime at all this semester.' first of all, who the fuck says that in the first place? thats so ignorant. and considering she lives with my best friends, idk why she had the balls to say that. secondly, thinking in that mind frame is just setting yourself up for acting that way. so it makes me think that if she said that out loud to one of my best friends that she honestly doesnt want to see or hang out with me. and you know whatever she said couldve just been a passing by thing which she thought was no big deal but it honestly kinda hurt my feelings to hear that she said it. especially since we were roommates last year. it just sucks to think that one of your friends already doesnt want to hang out with you. and thirdly, the only reason she wouldnt see me is if she doesnt go out (which i heard is a habit of hers already). let me tell you, this is the 3rd week of school and ive been out so much. im always out on thurs and fri, and most mondays (i dont have class tues or thurs so dont think im stupid). plus like i said before, she lives with my best friends here. so...like i said...what the hell!!
sometimes i just dont understand the way people think. i dont know why people would want to live a life of pessimism because it just makes people not want to be around you. i always try to have a positive outlook on life but when this kinda shit happens, how can i not at least vent about it?
i a bit better now that ive written this. but it really irks me that someone would even say something that stupid. it makes me reevaluate my friendship with them and at this point, im not in the mood to have someone like that in my life. so whatever.
im out. peace