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[gymknickers]

Today i was diagnosed as clinically depressed. Tomorrow, i move five hours away to start a new life. I'm scared. I wasnt too suprised about what the doc said, i've seen it before. But it still hurt like hell to have it said straight out to my face. This week has been awful. I said goodbye to my old flatmates and best friends on Wed. My best friend Jessie cried the entire night. God i love my friends. Tonight, myself and Ettienne and our parents went out for a drink to send us off, it was ok, but all i could think about was what happened at the doctors. I'm gonna take the meds perscribed for me. i need to get out of this or i'm gonna loose everyone.
I am so exited about me and Ett having a life, i'm optimistic but also wary, i think thats the best way to be. When we gor home tonight i made sure i spent some private time with both my parents, i made ym apologies and let them each know some things. I feel more ready to leave now. I want to start eating more and come back a new person.
This journal is gonna lie dormant for a while now. We have no internet in Etts uni flat and i dont know if i want to update from the uni computers incase Ett or someone else finds this. Thank all of you guys for all your support the past few months, i think im finally taking some real steps to clearing my head. Thanls for all your comments and advice, i wish you all well and hope to catch up with you soon when i am home next with some good news. BIIIIiiiiiiIIIIg Hugs xxxxxxx

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