ramblings at 3am
Meandering through the mess that is called my thought process
Making it known this day that i will forever be on display
Ok so whats in my head whats in my heart, whats in my wallet...not capitol one thats for sure. I'm in a relationship and you know its great. I really like this girl. Its amazing because I never thought I'd be in one again after the mess of the last one, but of course everything always looks bleak when you constantly surround yourself with grey rimmed clouds. Its the opposite of wearing rose colored glasses.
I'm looking for an appartment, and going to school, and working. Through a series of unfortunet events, I found myself or rather my parents living with me. I mkae enough or actually I made more than enough to move out, but decided to go to school. So I'm not making as much as I was. But in the long run I think it will be a better deal. But I want my independence, my adulthood back. Maybe I'm just really scare to get out on my own again, for fear of failure. Maybe I'm just complacent and lazy. Maybe I'm confused and not sure I can make it on my own. Maybe I'm just saving up money and figuring my shit out, recouping from a devistation that has left me scarred....maybe I'm throughly happy.
Its strange the people I run into. People who were all friends but now are not. This group of people down here, seem to not be happy. It wouledn't be a problem except they can't let any one else be happy. I mean people are down right rude and total asses. So I've decided to distance myself from them completely, that and I throughly enjoy the company of one Loida Garcia, who seems to be genuine and sincere, and a wonderful person.
Making it known this day that i will forever be on display
Ok so whats in my head whats in my heart, whats in my wallet...not capitol one thats for sure. I'm in a relationship and you know its great. I really like this girl. Its amazing because I never thought I'd be in one again after the mess of the last one, but of course everything always looks bleak when you constantly surround yourself with grey rimmed clouds. Its the opposite of wearing rose colored glasses.
I'm looking for an appartment, and going to school, and working. Through a series of unfortunet events, I found myself or rather my parents living with me. I mkae enough or actually I made more than enough to move out, but decided to go to school. So I'm not making as much as I was. But in the long run I think it will be a better deal. But I want my independence, my adulthood back. Maybe I'm just really scare to get out on my own again, for fear of failure. Maybe I'm just complacent and lazy. Maybe I'm confused and not sure I can make it on my own. Maybe I'm just saving up money and figuring my shit out, recouping from a devistation that has left me scarred....maybe I'm throughly happy.
Its strange the people I run into. People who were all friends but now are not. This group of people down here, seem to not be happy. It wouledn't be a problem except they can't let any one else be happy. I mean people are down right rude and total asses. So I've decided to distance myself from them completely, that and I throughly enjoy the company of one Loida Garcia, who seems to be genuine and sincere, and a wonderful person.