suicide by LJ - no not me
kohn aka Phil Mostyn, of Melbourne Australia, is an LJ friend with a common interest in science fiction. To get a suicide note this way...words fail me. all at once - shock, helplessness, anger, sadness.
Originally posted by kohn at Goodbye, Cruel World
I have stated a few times to different people that I must have severely fucked things up in a previous life to be paying for it so much in this one :-(
So....
In order to at least *try* to make whatever amends on that as I can, and to no longer be such a burdon on people, I have decided to remove myself from this life entirely
That, coupled with the fact that my life, such as it has been, has just been one disaster after another....not being able to find work for more than a year (and frequent times for long periods before that), my not being able to hold down anything resembling a relationship for any long period of time (I think my current record stands at about a week, and *that* was 4 years ago!!), and my Depression and Anger Issues....both of which, granted, may well be a factor in what I've just mentioned as well
And so, I say goodbye to this world....
Do not cry or mourn for my passing, as I feel I'm not worth it
Instead, I ask merely to be remembered for a Drink that I used to make for a certain Party....a Drink that was also popular in its own right for awhile as well
If I can at least be remembered for this much, I will be content enough that I will have made at least *one* contribution that people might consider to be worthwhile :-)
Originally posted by kohn at Goodbye, Cruel World
I have stated a few times to different people that I must have severely fucked things up in a previous life to be paying for it so much in this one :-(
So....
In order to at least *try* to make whatever amends on that as I can, and to no longer be such a burdon on people, I have decided to remove myself from this life entirely
That, coupled with the fact that my life, such as it has been, has just been one disaster after another....not being able to find work for more than a year (and frequent times for long periods before that), my not being able to hold down anything resembling a relationship for any long period of time (I think my current record stands at about a week, and *that* was 4 years ago!!), and my Depression and Anger Issues....both of which, granted, may well be a factor in what I've just mentioned as well
And so, I say goodbye to this world....
Do not cry or mourn for my passing, as I feel I'm not worth it
Instead, I ask merely to be remembered for a Drink that I used to make for a certain Party....a Drink that was also popular in its own right for awhile as well
If I can at least be remembered for this much, I will be content enough that I will have made at least *one* contribution that people might consider to be worthwhile :-)