019 [RyuKo] Unrequited Love
Title: Unrequited Love
Pairing: Fukuda Mayuko x Kamiki Ryunosuke
Genre: Angst, Romance
Author: macymacymacy
Summary: Title says it all.
AN: I think I read this somewhere when I was in gradeschool... I'm not really sure... I can't remember if I dreamt of this or if this was a story I read or if I watched it somewhere... anyway... on with the story.
I tried to match it as much with reality but of course, this is a fanfic, so I still had my way...
Mayuko's POV
Rating: PG
Warning: UNBETA-ed, sorry if there are any wrong grammars...
We first met when his family moved from Saitama to Tokyo. They moved to our neighborhood.
When I went out of our house that day, he was there. He was watching the movers carry their things inside their new house.
He saw me looking, smiled at me, and walked towards me.
“Hello, I’m Ryunosuke, do you wanna be friends?” Was the first words he said to me.
We've become fast friends.
We learned after that that we're both child actors. That made us laughed.
Every night, when we don't have work, we would go to our roof and just look at the stars.
He was the one who taught me how to play the piano.
Sometimes, we would also practice acting together.
And we would even try to imitate or make other voices, too.
He became my best friend.
I became his best friend. I was his 'Mayu,' he said.
But then both of us were starting to get bigger roles in the entertainment industry.
He got a big role in Aikurushii.
And I was included in the main cast of Jyoou no Kyoushitsu.
Our stargazing became a rare occasion.
We didn't get to practice or play the piano together as much, too.
Our families were very proud of us.
I was very proud of my best friend.
And then we got to work on the same movie, Little DJ. I was determined I will do my best so maybe we could work together more.
It was fun working with him. It was like the old days again. I never realized how much I missed them until that time.
Then we graduated from junior high. But we didn't get to go to the same high school.
I met my first boyfriend in high school.
He wasn't a celebrity like us.
He was very sweet and very understanding.
He was very much like Ryun... or so I thought.
Weeks after going out, I discovered that he was cheating on me.
I didn't get angry. I just felt sad. Felt betrayed... I just cried.
I knocked on Ryun's door. I wanted to see him so bad.
He opened the door, took one look at me then hugged me.
He led me back to our house and the next thing I knew, we were on the roof again. Ryun was comforting me, saying soothing words, saying words I wanted to hear from him.
He called me 'Mayu' again that night. I never really realized he hadn't done so in such a long time.
I never dated anyone else after that.
After that night, I realized that I have always been in love with Ryun.
But then, when we met again, he said he was now going out with Shida-san.
My heart shattered for my unrequited love. But it rejoiced to see Ryun happy.
But it was short-lived. After a few months, Ryun knocked onto our door.
He said he wanted to hang out on the roof again, so we did.
The next day, I found out that he and Shida-san were through.
After graduating high school, we were offered more projects.
We both became big in Japanese entertainment industry.
But we never got to hang out anymore.
Years passed and we haven't talk like before. Even if he lives just a few steps away...
And then I got a mail from him.
It was an invitation.
He was getting married.
I cried that night. I never really stopped loving him.
The wedding day came and of course I attended. It was my best friend's wedding after all.
I shed tears when they exchanged vows. I just covered it by saying I was so happy for my friend.
During their reception, he approached me and asked me to dance.
We danced. My heart beating traitorously, my mind forming unbidden images and him and me marrying, imagining that this was our wedding day.
He was smiling widely while we were dancing and my heart ache that this would be our last dance.
He led me out when the day was approaching its end.
"I'm retiring as an actor." He said, "I want to settle down. We'll be moving to LA."
My heart was already in pieces but I felt like it shattered again.
He was leaving.
Leaving me...
I smiled at him and said I'll miss him.
He hugged me, and said he'll miss me, too.
They left after a week. He left with his family, with his wife...
I didn't see him off. I didn't feel like I can cope if I did.
We still send mails. Post mails, as he suggested. He really is fond of traditional things.
But those post were a comfort to me. Seeing his handwriting made me feel like I could still reach him.
We mail every week. It was a constant for me.
But one day, it stopped.
I thought he was just busy so I let it go.
But weeks passed and still no mails from him.
After one month, a mail finally came.
But it wasn't from him.
It was from his lawyer.
He asked me to come to LA for the reading of his will.
He is gone.
My best friend is gone.
I feel like I’ve gone. Do I? No… I don’t think I can really feel anything.
He’s gone.
Ryun’s gone.
Died from a car accident that day I didn't receive a mail.
I didn't cry. It wasn't registering on my head.
I took the plane going to LA the next day.
I stayed at a hotel after arriving. I didn't cry, still.
But still in my head, a sentence kept repeating.
He’s gone.
It was something foreign. It was something my mind can’t seem to process. I didn’t feel. I didn’t cry. I just listen to that voice who kept insisting,
He’s gone.
I went to his home the day of the reading.
There was his wife, wearing black, and his two years old daughter, Mai.
The lawyer read his will. He left his house, his money, and all his possessions to his daughter.
Only then did I learn that he and his wife were already divorced.
The lawyer continued reading but the only thing he left me was a black notebook.
Just a black notebook. But it triggered something as I held it.
Suddenly I was crying.
And then I heard a voice that sounds so broken.
“He’s gone. He’s gone… Ryun is gone.”
After a while, I realized it was mine.
I return to Japan the next day. I never let go of the notebook.
When I returned, the press was all in hubbub about him. That just made my heart ache more.
That night, I went back to our roof.
I opened the notebook and recognized his handwriting. It was a diary.
I read the first entry; it was after our movie, Little DJ.
He talked about his life in Horikoshi.
Then the night I cried to him. How angry he was at himself that he couldn't help me.
And then about Shida-san...
I stopped abruptly when I read the next entry. I felt numb.
'I broke up with Mirai because I realize that I love Mayu. I have love her ever since. But I didn't notice.'
And then the next pages were all about me.
How he was so proud of me...
How he missed me...
How he loves me...
The day he met his ex-wife, how she look a lot like me...
How he imagined that it our wedding when we danced...
How he waited for me at the airport...
How he named his daughter 'Mai' because it sounds like 'Mayu'
...about how he couldn't keep being unfair to his wife.
…about their divorce.
And then the last page. I almost wish I didn’t see it. That the lawyer didn’t give me this diary.
'I'm returning to Japan. I'll come back to Mayu. I'll confess.'
It was the last entry.
It was an entry on the day he died.
END.
AN: RyuKo fans! Don't hate me! >_<
Pairing: Fukuda Mayuko x Kamiki Ryunosuke
Genre: Angst, Romance
Author: macymacymacy
Summary: Title says it all.
AN: I think I read this somewhere when I was in gradeschool... I'm not really sure... I can't remember if I dreamt of this or if this was a story I read or if I watched it somewhere... anyway... on with the story.
I tried to match it as much with reality but of course, this is a fanfic, so I still had my way...
Mayuko's POV
Rating: PG
Warning: UNBETA-ed, sorry if there are any wrong grammars...
We first met when his family moved from Saitama to Tokyo. They moved to our neighborhood.
When I went out of our house that day, he was there. He was watching the movers carry their things inside their new house.
He saw me looking, smiled at me, and walked towards me.
“Hello, I’m Ryunosuke, do you wanna be friends?” Was the first words he said to me.
We've become fast friends.
We learned after that that we're both child actors. That made us laughed.
Every night, when we don't have work, we would go to our roof and just look at the stars.
He was the one who taught me how to play the piano.
Sometimes, we would also practice acting together.
And we would even try to imitate or make other voices, too.
He became my best friend.
I became his best friend. I was his 'Mayu,' he said.
But then both of us were starting to get bigger roles in the entertainment industry.
He got a big role in Aikurushii.
And I was included in the main cast of Jyoou no Kyoushitsu.
Our stargazing became a rare occasion.
We didn't get to practice or play the piano together as much, too.
Our families were very proud of us.
I was very proud of my best friend.
And then we got to work on the same movie, Little DJ. I was determined I will do my best so maybe we could work together more.
It was fun working with him. It was like the old days again. I never realized how much I missed them until that time.
Then we graduated from junior high. But we didn't get to go to the same high school.
I met my first boyfriend in high school.
He wasn't a celebrity like us.
He was very sweet and very understanding.
He was very much like Ryun... or so I thought.
Weeks after going out, I discovered that he was cheating on me.
I didn't get angry. I just felt sad. Felt betrayed... I just cried.
I knocked on Ryun's door. I wanted to see him so bad.
He opened the door, took one look at me then hugged me.
He led me back to our house and the next thing I knew, we were on the roof again. Ryun was comforting me, saying soothing words, saying words I wanted to hear from him.
He called me 'Mayu' again that night. I never really realized he hadn't done so in such a long time.
I never dated anyone else after that.
After that night, I realized that I have always been in love with Ryun.
But then, when we met again, he said he was now going out with Shida-san.
My heart shattered for my unrequited love. But it rejoiced to see Ryun happy.
But it was short-lived. After a few months, Ryun knocked onto our door.
He said he wanted to hang out on the roof again, so we did.
The next day, I found out that he and Shida-san were through.
After graduating high school, we were offered more projects.
We both became big in Japanese entertainment industry.
But we never got to hang out anymore.
Years passed and we haven't talk like before. Even if he lives just a few steps away...
And then I got a mail from him.
It was an invitation.
He was getting married.
I cried that night. I never really stopped loving him.
The wedding day came and of course I attended. It was my best friend's wedding after all.
I shed tears when they exchanged vows. I just covered it by saying I was so happy for my friend.
During their reception, he approached me and asked me to dance.
We danced. My heart beating traitorously, my mind forming unbidden images and him and me marrying, imagining that this was our wedding day.
He was smiling widely while we were dancing and my heart ache that this would be our last dance.
He led me out when the day was approaching its end.
"I'm retiring as an actor." He said, "I want to settle down. We'll be moving to LA."
My heart was already in pieces but I felt like it shattered again.
He was leaving.
Leaving me...
I smiled at him and said I'll miss him.
He hugged me, and said he'll miss me, too.
They left after a week. He left with his family, with his wife...
I didn't see him off. I didn't feel like I can cope if I did.
We still send mails. Post mails, as he suggested. He really is fond of traditional things.
But those post were a comfort to me. Seeing his handwriting made me feel like I could still reach him.
We mail every week. It was a constant for me.
But one day, it stopped.
I thought he was just busy so I let it go.
But weeks passed and still no mails from him.
After one month, a mail finally came.
But it wasn't from him.
It was from his lawyer.
He asked me to come to LA for the reading of his will.
He is gone.
My best friend is gone.
I feel like I’ve gone. Do I? No… I don’t think I can really feel anything.
He’s gone.
Ryun’s gone.
Died from a car accident that day I didn't receive a mail.
I didn't cry. It wasn't registering on my head.
I took the plane going to LA the next day.
I stayed at a hotel after arriving. I didn't cry, still.
But still in my head, a sentence kept repeating.
He’s gone.
It was something foreign. It was something my mind can’t seem to process. I didn’t feel. I didn’t cry. I just listen to that voice who kept insisting,
He’s gone.
I went to his home the day of the reading.
There was his wife, wearing black, and his two years old daughter, Mai.
The lawyer read his will. He left his house, his money, and all his possessions to his daughter.
Only then did I learn that he and his wife were already divorced.
The lawyer continued reading but the only thing he left me was a black notebook.
Just a black notebook. But it triggered something as I held it.
Suddenly I was crying.
And then I heard a voice that sounds so broken.
“He’s gone. He’s gone… Ryun is gone.”
After a while, I realized it was mine.
I return to Japan the next day. I never let go of the notebook.
When I returned, the press was all in hubbub about him. That just made my heart ache more.
That night, I went back to our roof.
I opened the notebook and recognized his handwriting. It was a diary.
I read the first entry; it was after our movie, Little DJ.
He talked about his life in Horikoshi.
Then the night I cried to him. How angry he was at himself that he couldn't help me.
And then about Shida-san...
I stopped abruptly when I read the next entry. I felt numb.
'I broke up with Mirai because I realize that I love Mayu. I have love her ever since. But I didn't notice.'
And then the next pages were all about me.
How he was so proud of me...
How he missed me...
How he loves me...
The day he met his ex-wife, how she look a lot like me...
How he imagined that it our wedding when we danced...
How he waited for me at the airport...
How he named his daughter 'Mai' because it sounds like 'Mayu'
...about how he couldn't keep being unfair to his wife.
…about their divorce.
And then the last page. I almost wish I didn’t see it. That the lawyer didn’t give me this diary.
'I'm returning to Japan. I'll come back to Mayu. I'll confess.'
It was the last entry.
It was an entry on the day he died.
END.
AN: RyuKo fans! Don't hate me! >_<