when in doubt: embrace the insanity.
...*has been reading her old-as-shit Muse!Crack* which means, the voices in my head are overwhelming me.
warning: I'm insane, and my mind is delusional. so everyone is highly OOC. I have no excuse.
Naruto: ...
Sasuke: ...
Me: ...*holds head in a disturbed fashion* just dont TALK ok? just- DONT. I dont think I can handle this with you guys- I'll CRY. hell, I'm three seconds away from crying NOW. DONT SAY ANYTHING.
Naruto: ...
Sasuke: ...
Me: *FUCKING. CRIES* GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD. *hysterical weeping*
Sasuke: You are the WORST fangirl I've ever had the misfortune of coming across.
Me: *SCREAMS IN MENTAL AGONY* I TOLD YOU NOT TO SPEAK. WHAT FUCKING PART OF KEEP YOUR MOTHER-FUCKING MOUTH SHUT DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND? DONT TALK TO ME, DONT EVEN LOOK AT ME. I HATE YOU MORE THAN I'VE EVER HATED ANYTHING EVER AND YOU BREAK MY HEART LIKE NOTHING ON EARTH. /*hyperventilates and chokes on her own tears*\
Naruto: ...are you ok?
Me: ...*stuffs fists into mouth and feel like she's dying slowly, tortuously, agonizingly* please get out. you're literally killing me. *more uncontrollable crying*
Sakura: ...you need help kiddo.
Me: GET THE FUCK OUT.
Sai: must you scream?
Me: They upset me very badly, what do you expect Mr. 'I dont know what emotions are' *irritated*
Jiraiya: now now, settle down Hun.
Me: ... *curls up into a miserable ball* You're gonna make me cry again ;_; please leave ._.;;;;;
Itachi: But I LIKE your mind.
Me: ... *inarticulate gurgling* you're KILLING me here. Seriously. Just STOP already before I have a mental breakdown.
Sasuke: You're having one right now.
Me: *VIBRATES WITH MINDLESS RAGE* GET. THE FUCK. OUT. YOU. OUT. NOW. FOREVER. OUT. BE GONE YOU FUCKING BASTARD. I DONT GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT YOU OR YOUR RETARDED ASS. GET THE FUCK OUT.
Naruto: wow. -I- didnt even have that reaction.
Me: *SNARLS* I'm not talking to you right now. I'm pretending yo're not talking in my head, I'm pretending like I'm fucking NORMAL even when you look like you dont know what to make of me, and I cant believe myself anymore. please, Honey, Darling- for my onw sanity. take your retarded-as-shit Boyfriend and your Groupies with you because I'm SCARED ;_;
Naruto: *goes through about five different emotions, from guilt to bewilderment to indignation to confusion to awkward* ... He's not my boyriend, even here *taps head lightly* I'm sorry.
Me: *breaks down crying* you are my undoing in every sense of the word and I both adore you and am terrified of you. I'm sorry too.
Naruto: *awkwardly* You're a nice girl.
Me: ....*choked little hysterical sob* NARUTO. PLEASE. for the love of Sasuke's Salvation, GO AWAY already ;_;!!!!
Sasuke: I need no salvation, and as if the Dumb-Ass could add two and two. a simple request is beyond him most of the time- *GETS PUNCHED by two different people*
Me: TAKE IT AWAY AND THROW IT TO HELL. I DONT THINK EVEN LUCIFER WILL TAKE HIS BLACK AS THE VOID SOUL *seething in so much rage and viscous wrath*
Itachi: *pets and soothes and rubs shoulders* Calm. Relax, breathe honey.
Me: *clutches at sleeves and claw at the air* I'm losing my mind, let me GO already. /hysterical.
Jiraiya: *helps Itachi out with a confused shrug by scooping the hysterical one up and sitting down, rocking back and frorth, back and forth while humming in a deep rumble* she seems calmest around us, hold her hand would you? Naruto! take you 'Retarded-as-Shit' boyfriend away. this one looks like she could rival that thing in your belly with rage.
Naruto: *nods clumsily and throttles Sasuke- not without getting cuffed by a fist and kneed in the stomach, gets into a slight tussle of limbs and ends up having to be seperated by Sai and Sakura* fucking Prick! *raging*
Sasuke: *hisses maliciously* Dead-Last.
Me: *numb, tugs on Itachi and touches his face, his hair, weeps and weeps and WEEPS* ... take it AWAY.
Itachi: *nods, does as told and drags a rag-doll-limp Sasuke away* it'll get better Babe. *touches her hair and ruffles gently*
Me: *clinging to Jiraiya* can I go to bed now?
Jiraiya: *smoothes hands down her back and head, keeps rocking gently, steadily* sleep, babe.
Me: ...can Naruto Stay? and hold my hand? Please?
Jiraiay: *looks at his apprentice* well?
Naruto: ...*speechless, looks embarrased and awkward and nervous, but inches closer slowly* just until you fall asleep ok? *touches fingers tentatively* are you ok now?
Me: ...its been a shitty week.
Naruto: ...*smiles* Its been a shitty Life.
Me: *laughs, feels calmer* I dont like Sasuke anymore. *sad beyond all reason* I'm sorry Naruto. *cries all over again*
Jiraiya: *mutters* wow this one's weepy.
Naruto: *to Jiraiya* tell me about it- *pets hand* Its ok. stop crying ok? it makes me quesy *grimaces*
Me: lol. ilu guys .-.
Jiraiya: *winks* who doesnt? *pets*
Naruto: *squeezes his sweaty palm* sleep now?
Me: ...I want Itachi here too.
Itachi: *appears out of NOwhere* you called?
Naruto: *jerks* dont DO that!
Jiraiya *shuffles about and rearranges everyone just so so that they make a human bed* now sleep Babe. work later remember?
Itachi: *pets hand and curls up with a sigh* You're not so bad, once you get past the anger and pms. You remind me of Sasuke.
Me: *twitches* I know.
Naruto: hey hey! she isnt anything like Sasuke! he's a pretty-boy bastard that wouldnt recognize happiness if it hit him like a ton of bricks!
Me: *laughs and squeezes his hand, tucks it under her cheek and looks miserable* yeah. that last bit sounds a LOT like me.
Itachi: *curls around her* sleep.
Naruto: *sighs and sits down cross-legged sidles up against Jiraiya and settles down* Night.
Jiraiya: *ruffles hair of both* Brats.
...*cleansed- mind, body and soul* ...I know I'm retarded, but this is what stress and life does to me. I feel better.
warning: I'm insane, and my mind is delusional. so everyone is highly OOC. I have no excuse.
Naruto: ...
Sasuke: ...
Me: ...*holds head in a disturbed fashion* just dont TALK ok? just- DONT. I dont think I can handle this with you guys- I'll CRY. hell, I'm three seconds away from crying NOW. DONT SAY ANYTHING.
Naruto: ...
Sasuke: ...
Me: *FUCKING. CRIES* GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD. *hysterical weeping*
Sasuke: You are the WORST fangirl I've ever had the misfortune of coming across.
Me: *SCREAMS IN MENTAL AGONY* I TOLD YOU NOT TO SPEAK. WHAT FUCKING PART OF KEEP YOUR MOTHER-FUCKING MOUTH SHUT DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND? DONT TALK TO ME, DONT EVEN LOOK AT ME. I HATE YOU MORE THAN I'VE EVER HATED ANYTHING EVER AND YOU BREAK MY HEART LIKE NOTHING ON EARTH. /*hyperventilates and chokes on her own tears*\
Naruto: ...are you ok?
Me: ...*stuffs fists into mouth and feel like she's dying slowly, tortuously, agonizingly* please get out. you're literally killing me. *more uncontrollable crying*
Sakura: ...you need help kiddo.
Me: GET THE FUCK OUT.
Sai: must you scream?
Me: They upset me very badly, what do you expect Mr. 'I dont know what emotions are' *irritated*
Jiraiya: now now, settle down Hun.
Me: ... *curls up into a miserable ball* You're gonna make me cry again ;_; please leave ._.;;;;;
Itachi: But I LIKE your mind.
Me: ... *inarticulate gurgling* you're KILLING me here. Seriously. Just STOP already before I have a mental breakdown.
Sasuke: You're having one right now.
Me: *VIBRATES WITH MINDLESS RAGE* GET. THE FUCK. OUT. YOU. OUT. NOW. FOREVER. OUT. BE GONE YOU FUCKING BASTARD. I DONT GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT YOU OR YOUR RETARDED ASS. GET THE FUCK OUT.
Naruto: wow. -I- didnt even have that reaction.
Me: *SNARLS* I'm not talking to you right now. I'm pretending yo're not talking in my head, I'm pretending like I'm fucking NORMAL even when you look like you dont know what to make of me, and I cant believe myself anymore. please, Honey, Darling- for my onw sanity. take your retarded-as-shit Boyfriend and your Groupies with you because I'm SCARED ;_;
Naruto: *goes through about five different emotions, from guilt to bewilderment to indignation to confusion to awkward* ... He's not my boyriend, even here *taps head lightly* I'm sorry.
Me: *breaks down crying* you are my undoing in every sense of the word and I both adore you and am terrified of you. I'm sorry too.
Naruto: *awkwardly* You're a nice girl.
Me: ....*choked little hysterical sob* NARUTO. PLEASE. for the love of Sasuke's Salvation, GO AWAY already ;_;!!!!
Sasuke: I need no salvation, and as if the Dumb-Ass could add two and two. a simple request is beyond him most of the time- *GETS PUNCHED by two different people*
Me: TAKE IT AWAY AND THROW IT TO HELL. I DONT THINK EVEN LUCIFER WILL TAKE HIS BLACK AS THE VOID SOUL *seething in so much rage and viscous wrath*
Itachi: *pets and soothes and rubs shoulders* Calm. Relax, breathe honey.
Me: *clutches at sleeves and claw at the air* I'm losing my mind, let me GO already. /hysterical.
Jiraiya: *helps Itachi out with a confused shrug by scooping the hysterical one up and sitting down, rocking back and frorth, back and forth while humming in a deep rumble* she seems calmest around us, hold her hand would you? Naruto! take you 'Retarded-as-Shit' boyfriend away. this one looks like she could rival that thing in your belly with rage.
Naruto: *nods clumsily and throttles Sasuke- not without getting cuffed by a fist and kneed in the stomach, gets into a slight tussle of limbs and ends up having to be seperated by Sai and Sakura* fucking Prick! *raging*
Sasuke: *hisses maliciously* Dead-Last.
Me: *numb, tugs on Itachi and touches his face, his hair, weeps and weeps and WEEPS* ... take it AWAY.
Itachi: *nods, does as told and drags a rag-doll-limp Sasuke away* it'll get better Babe. *touches her hair and ruffles gently*
Me: *clinging to Jiraiya* can I go to bed now?
Jiraiya: *smoothes hands down her back and head, keeps rocking gently, steadily* sleep, babe.
Me: ...can Naruto Stay? and hold my hand? Please?
Jiraiay: *looks at his apprentice* well?
Naruto: ...*speechless, looks embarrased and awkward and nervous, but inches closer slowly* just until you fall asleep ok? *touches fingers tentatively* are you ok now?
Me: ...its been a shitty week.
Naruto: ...*smiles* Its been a shitty Life.
Me: *laughs, feels calmer* I dont like Sasuke anymore. *sad beyond all reason* I'm sorry Naruto. *cries all over again*
Jiraiya: *mutters* wow this one's weepy.
Naruto: *to Jiraiya* tell me about it- *pets hand* Its ok. stop crying ok? it makes me quesy *grimaces*
Me: lol. ilu guys .-.
Jiraiya: *winks* who doesnt? *pets*
Naruto: *squeezes his sweaty palm* sleep now?
Me: ...I want Itachi here too.
Itachi: *appears out of NOwhere* you called?
Naruto: *jerks* dont DO that!
Jiraiya *shuffles about and rearranges everyone just so so that they make a human bed* now sleep Babe. work later remember?
Itachi: *pets hand and curls up with a sigh* You're not so bad, once you get past the anger and pms. You remind me of Sasuke.
Me: *twitches* I know.
Naruto: hey hey! she isnt anything like Sasuke! he's a pretty-boy bastard that wouldnt recognize happiness if it hit him like a ton of bricks!
Me: *laughs and squeezes his hand, tucks it under her cheek and looks miserable* yeah. that last bit sounds a LOT like me.
Itachi: *curls around her* sleep.
Naruto: *sighs and sits down cross-legged sidles up against Jiraiya and settles down* Night.
Jiraiya: *ruffles hair of both* Brats.
...*cleansed- mind, body and soul* ...I know I'm retarded, but this is what stress and life does to me. I feel better.