Oh...myfuck. what the shit brain? ;_;
...3100+ of.. of.. of crap. I dont fucking BELIEVE this.
I've NEVER written FIVE PAGES WORTH of fanficttion. I dont even KNOW what the fuck I'm writinga nd .. just- GUH. I feel like its boring and stupid and vague and just.. like it makes no sense.
... AND I'M NOT EVEN DONE WITH THE FILE YET OHDEARGOD.
*hyperventilates* I remember this. I only have this much to write when I'm furstrated and stressed beyond words about personal shit. So fuck. Carter's affecting my mental health.
DAMN IT.
and I had a visit from Sasuke this morning as I was walking to Work.
yes, I officially have a Sasuke!Muse now, and he is.. just.. SCARING me. because a part of him is viscously pleased and another is demanding Itachi death/finale.
ohgod, That chapter is going to KILL me- if I decide to write it. hell, this one's halfway to making me cry with WTF. naruto doesnt exist yet, but I feel very very angry vibes in the back of my mind and I dont really feel comfortable with the Boys in my head. I even have a name/title for this. and.. and.. I dont BELIEVE this. I cant honestly keep writing this, I mean- its stupid and wtf and .. just- NOT good and GAH. plus, I dont LIKE my writing style. its really hard to follow and I get distracted easily and I cant do dialogue worth shit and I focus too much on emotion and texture instead of surroundings and speech.
Guh. *shoots self* wtf brain- just- WTF.
I've NEVER written FIVE PAGES WORTH of fanficttion. I dont even KNOW what the fuck I'm writinga nd .. just- GUH. I feel like its boring and stupid and vague and just.. like it makes no sense.
... AND I'M NOT EVEN DONE WITH THE FILE YET OHDEARGOD.
*hyperventilates* I remember this. I only have this much to write when I'm furstrated and stressed beyond words about personal shit. So fuck. Carter's affecting my mental health.
DAMN IT.
and I had a visit from Sasuke this morning as I was walking to Work.
yes, I officially have a Sasuke!Muse now, and he is.. just.. SCARING me. because a part of him is viscously pleased and another is demanding Itachi death/finale.
ohgod, That chapter is going to KILL me- if I decide to write it. hell, this one's halfway to making me cry with WTF. naruto doesnt exist yet, but I feel very very angry vibes in the back of my mind and I dont really feel comfortable with the Boys in my head. I even have a name/title for this. and.. and.. I dont BELIEVE this. I cant honestly keep writing this, I mean- its stupid and wtf and .. just- NOT good and GAH. plus, I dont LIKE my writing style. its really hard to follow and I get distracted easily and I cant do dialogue worth shit and I focus too much on emotion and texture instead of surroundings and speech.
Guh. *shoots self* wtf brain- just- WTF.