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Back in Philly, and I've been out every night since, despite this bitch of a cold.
That didn't really kick in til Saturday morning though, and I'm doing my best to sing through it, as practice for the song I'm performing at this month's Dorian's Parlor I've gotten a lot of support in doing so, for which I am very grateful. It's apparently not a surprise anymore, since Gil announced that I was doing so at an acoustic "Dorian's Presents" show with Eli August earlier this evening. But that's alright... I'm rather nervous and excited for it! :)
I am really going to miss my friends here, but I know I will be much happier overall in Seattle, and look forward to finding steadier employment there, as well as having more opportunities to sell my crafts. I'm putting a lot more time into working on that stuff lately, and as of tomorrow I'll be putting a bit more effort & fun into myself! The lovely Thain, with assistance from Gil, Becky, and Brenna, will be helping me amp up my sexit00d & wizardry. As someone who understands what it is to be genderqueer and not always in alignment with one's biological components, I think Thain will be really be able to help me find my own flavour of sexiness. I haven't been sure how to go about finding it on my own in recent times, so I look forward to seeing where tomorrow leads!
I have been wanting to SHOUT with JOY about something... Something I've wanted so much and for so long, something that turned out to be so wonderfully comfortable, and sweet, and lovely, and intense, and just... ohh, I don't think there's even a word to really do it justice. I sound sappy & ridiculous, and I just don't care! Far better than being heartsick and torn up, as in months past. Even though I'll never understand or be able to explain it, that doesn't matter anymore. I know where things are, I know where we stand, and I savour every second and every memory... because somehow, and despite it all, few things in the known universe can light me up in the same way. I accept everything that it is, and what isn't. And somewhere in between, in its own strange little space... That's where it will stay... in my heart.
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That didn't really kick in til Saturday morning though, and I'm doing my best to sing through it, as practice for the song I'm performing at this month's Dorian's Parlor I've gotten a lot of support in doing so, for which I am very grateful. It's apparently not a surprise anymore, since Gil announced that I was doing so at an acoustic "Dorian's Presents" show with Eli August earlier this evening. But that's alright... I'm rather nervous and excited for it! :)
I am really going to miss my friends here, but I know I will be much happier overall in Seattle, and look forward to finding steadier employment there, as well as having more opportunities to sell my crafts. I'm putting a lot more time into working on that stuff lately, and as of tomorrow I'll be putting a bit more effort & fun into myself! The lovely Thain, with assistance from Gil, Becky, and Brenna, will be helping me amp up my sexit00d & wizardry. As someone who understands what it is to be genderqueer and not always in alignment with one's biological components, I think Thain will be really be able to help me find my own flavour of sexiness. I haven't been sure how to go about finding it on my own in recent times, so I look forward to seeing where tomorrow leads!
I have been wanting to SHOUT with JOY about something... Something I've wanted so much and for so long, something that turned out to be so wonderfully comfortable, and sweet, and lovely, and intense, and just... ohh, I don't think there's even a word to really do it justice. I sound sappy & ridiculous, and I just don't care! Far better than being heartsick and torn up, as in months past. Even though I'll never understand or be able to explain it, that doesn't matter anymore. I know where things are, I know where we stand, and I savour every second and every memory... because somehow, and despite it all, few things in the known universe can light me up in the same way. I accept everything that it is, and what isn't. And somewhere in between, in its own strange little space... That's where it will stay... in my heart.
<3
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