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I have not been on this thing in a long time. I was reading old entries, and i read a lot of references to my "middle-school self" that I had changed so drastically from, but judging by my behavior these days, i've really not changed. I'm still me. I'm not a different person. This may seem like an obvious thing, but for me it took a realization. I am still the same person, I have just grown up a little bit.
We did this thing for voice class where we had to write down events in our life that came to our mind. Psychological turning points is what she called them. Well, probably 80 percent of mine had to do with boys. It's not that I used to be boy-crazy and now I've changed. I'm just boy-crazy in general. Maybe now you could say I'm guy-crazy, but that just sounds weird.
For some reason, I just base my entire life around them. I guess for a while now I've felt that there was something wrong with that, but is there, really? I mean, if that's who I am, is it a problem?
I really hate it when people use that as an excuse to act like a jackass: "But that's just who i am!" No, asshole, that's just shitty behavior so change it or kill yourself. Or just don't ever speak to me or affect my life in any way. That would be okay, too.
In any case, I don't know if I should just accept it as a part of myself and embrace it, or attempt to change it for my own sake. I don't really consider killing myself an option.
We did this thing for voice class where we had to write down events in our life that came to our mind. Psychological turning points is what she called them. Well, probably 80 percent of mine had to do with boys. It's not that I used to be boy-crazy and now I've changed. I'm just boy-crazy in general. Maybe now you could say I'm guy-crazy, but that just sounds weird.
For some reason, I just base my entire life around them. I guess for a while now I've felt that there was something wrong with that, but is there, really? I mean, if that's who I am, is it a problem?
I really hate it when people use that as an excuse to act like a jackass: "But that's just who i am!" No, asshole, that's just shitty behavior so change it or kill yourself. Or just don't ever speak to me or affect my life in any way. That would be okay, too.
In any case, I don't know if I should just accept it as a part of myself and embrace it, or attempt to change it for my own sake. I don't really consider killing myself an option.