Update
Hey everyone,
I feel like I haven't posted here in ages and maybe that's even true. In the last months I have been so overly BUSY with good and not so good things, all kinds of integration work and Self-Birthing - and I have found that Self-Birthing really is the beste name to frame that process and experience I am undertaking now and have been undertaking since last Samhain at least. It is a process of Self-realisation and this naturally is a challenging project. As you, dear readers, will know, I had and have to face a LOT about my past, abuses I suffered from and healing works that needed and need to be done. In a way - abusive past or not - this is a process everyone of us who seeks Self-Posession has to undergo at some point. At some point we have to let go the masks and experiences of the past in order for us to move on without them framing and defining our experiences and being any longer. If it's Self-definition we are striving for everything but Self is a bad place to look at in our search (though aknowledging that our Self is reflecting EVERYTHING is helpful every once in a while as well).
Well, I don't want to ramble endlessly over this process right now, but what I want to tell you is this: Labour is over it's critical phase and close to it's end. The light being that I am is already sticking out it's head and more. I see it. I AM it. Not every second of the day, but at an increasing amount of time. I don't really know how it will be to live as this new/original Self - and how could I? It is through experience that I will learn and grow accustomed to Me. Only life lived can give us a taste of life. Thus this is what I'm going to do: Breathing, living, being, changing, aligning EVERYTHING. That's not a small thing, it is huge indeed, but I have chosen to follow that path before I was born and won't stop walking it now that I am.
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Gwydion
I feel like I haven't posted here in ages and maybe that's even true. In the last months I have been so overly BUSY with good and not so good things, all kinds of integration work and Self-Birthing - and I have found that Self-Birthing really is the beste name to frame that process and experience I am undertaking now and have been undertaking since last Samhain at least. It is a process of Self-realisation and this naturally is a challenging project. As you, dear readers, will know, I had and have to face a LOT about my past, abuses I suffered from and healing works that needed and need to be done. In a way - abusive past or not - this is a process everyone of us who seeks Self-Posession has to undergo at some point. At some point we have to let go the masks and experiences of the past in order for us to move on without them framing and defining our experiences and being any longer. If it's Self-definition we are striving for everything but Self is a bad place to look at in our search (though aknowledging that our Self is reflecting EVERYTHING is helpful every once in a while as well).
Well, I don't want to ramble endlessly over this process right now, but what I want to tell you is this: Labour is over it's critical phase and close to it's end. The light being that I am is already sticking out it's head and more. I see it. I AM it. Not every second of the day, but at an increasing amount of time. I don't really know how it will be to live as this new/original Self - and how could I? It is through experience that I will learn and grow accustomed to Me. Only life lived can give us a taste of life. Thus this is what I'm going to do: Breathing, living, being, changing, aligning EVERYTHING. That's not a small thing, it is huge indeed, but I have chosen to follow that path before I was born and won't stop walking it now that I am.
bb*
Gwydion