Time & Beauty (& Power)
Hey there,
it took me some time to acclimate myself. I feel very different since I came from Feri Camp and some of the processes I am currently involved in are quiet pattern-shifting as well. I ask for it, because I prefer drama over tedium. I want change and evolution. I am hardly resting, even if Fetch wants to. Now that university and my tutoring job started again last week there are even more concerns and demands to deal with. I do not complain, because I basically have everything I wanted and asked for. It is just enormously challenging to pack this abundance into a tiny box like a time schedule for exemple. Sometimes it feels like the attempt to collect water with a strainer. It just doesn't work. If I want it to work - and I do! - I have to slow down and set binding priorities. I have to face the truth of what feeds me and what drains me and act accordingly. This is Self-Love and it is hard work for me. I am (still) not used to prioritize my own happiness and well-being. I am not used to being so popular that I have to decide what friendships and relationships to nourish and which ones to sacrifice on the altar of Selfhood. Though the fact that I am not used to doing such things doesn't matter. If I want to be the one in charge of my time, visions and resources, to do so is my choice.
Some Beauty to share as well (I am completely in Love with Van Gogh's art at the moment):
Blessings to you! May you know Beauty and Strength in your struggles!
bb*
Gwydion
PS: I will give a weekend workshop about Power and Consensus in some weeks and am planing to watch a related movie at one evening then. Any suggestions for one? I find it really hard to find a movie that displays true Power. Most focus just on misuse or promote power-concepts I don''t buy.
it took me some time to acclimate myself. I feel very different since I came from Feri Camp and some of the processes I am currently involved in are quiet pattern-shifting as well. I ask for it, because I prefer drama over tedium. I want change and evolution. I am hardly resting, even if Fetch wants to. Now that university and my tutoring job started again last week there are even more concerns and demands to deal with. I do not complain, because I basically have everything I wanted and asked for. It is just enormously challenging to pack this abundance into a tiny box like a time schedule for exemple. Sometimes it feels like the attempt to collect water with a strainer. It just doesn't work. If I want it to work - and I do! - I have to slow down and set binding priorities. I have to face the truth of what feeds me and what drains me and act accordingly. This is Self-Love and it is hard work for me. I am (still) not used to prioritize my own happiness and well-being. I am not used to being so popular that I have to decide what friendships and relationships to nourish and which ones to sacrifice on the altar of Selfhood. Though the fact that I am not used to doing such things doesn't matter. If I want to be the one in charge of my time, visions and resources, to do so is my choice.
Some Beauty to share as well (I am completely in Love with Van Gogh's art at the moment):
Blessings to you! May you know Beauty and Strength in your struggles!
bb*
Gwydion
PS: I will give a weekend workshop about Power and Consensus in some weeks and am planing to watch a related movie at one evening then. Any suggestions for one? I find it really hard to find a movie that displays true Power. Most focus just on misuse or promote power-concepts I don''t buy.