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Friends are so silly. ..and, I'm so silly. OK! So the Megan thing was nothing to worry about. BUT STILL. It stirred up Year 9 memories which are still painful, it got me concerned because it wasnt a normal thing.. I dunno. I wont try and justify it. It was silly, ok? But better than me not caring if someone was flirting with Andrew, or so I thought. Even though she didnt. I hope. She stayed till 8.30, and was invited to stay for dinner by Peta. That stung. But then, Peta kind of invites everyone and anyone to stay for dinner. So get over it, myself. Our French students arrived on Saturday, which was cool! Its strange, because I'd been talking to Aurore through MSN and email beforehand, so now it feels reasonably comfortable, like we're old friends. We stayed out till past 12 on her first night , after 24 hours or more of air travel!! I was so suprised she didnt die of tiredness. It was my cousins 18th, which was cool, she went to Carey Grammar, a couple of people there knew French and spoke a bit to Aurore so that was great. Michael Gate, son of Gabriel Gate, who you should know if you ever watched GMA, was going to come, but couldnt, and Sebastien Costello, son of Peter Costello, was there. He said 'je m'appelle Sebastian' to Aurore and I think I said a few words to him.. cool, eh? lol. Yep. So my cousins are all uptown rich and popular and my parents are the bums of the family. I be the child of a bum. Or, in fact, two. One of my Dads bros lives in a pricey house in Richmond. Ouch.
So Sat and Sun I worked for the 3rd and 4th last time. It was ok. Went to the city to show Aurore round. Pretty unexciting. Took our French students to classes on Monday, which was alright. They think our French teachers suck at French. How funny's that? They hung with the other French kids for most of the rest of the day. BIG THING. There was a disagreement in our group.. that didn't involve me!! I mean, shock horror! I've decided that I'm just a mean bean, there's not.. I don't think, there's one person in our group that I havent argued with at some time, remembering I've known some of them for 4 years now. I hate it, but I'm stubborn, I'm argumentative and I don't insult well. Jo called me cold and frigid today. Lucky for her she was joking! So anyway, Mel probably said something jokingly in English to Megan, who then took it personality and went off to her knight in shining armor obsessed boyfriend who thinks wearing reece shirts is cool, lol, and when Mel likely said sorry or explained she didnt mean it like that, Megan continued to crack the ships and Travis and Matt told her she was wrong. So both were crappy at each other. Here's my opinion. Being the main target of my share of Mel an Megan hate over the years, Mel probably bluntly said some comment about Megan, who can be overly sensitive, and Megan took it badly even though logic would say that Mel lkely didnt mean it that way, Megan went and got Trav and Matt to side with her, cried (I don't cry anymore.. I almost wish I did! The attention the people in our group get when they cry.. Next day everyones ignoring me, I might just cry to test my theory. Scientific/physocological purposes, of course. That sounds really insensative and terrible, but it bothers me. Those who can cry easily get doted on too much. Lack of tears does not equal lack of emotion or feeling), and when Mel came over a little forlorn to probably comfort Megan, she got told that what she did was terribly horribly wrong, and that got her pissed off. Equals angst. And I was stupid about it. Everyone was off moping, and I took that as a chance to be the happy bouncy bubbly one. Wow. I really do sound insensative today. But know that in my happy bubbly-ness I was hoping to influence them to do likewise. And, I could see the triviality of the dispute and tried to make light of that. They won't even remember what it was about in 6 months. So take a big breath, swallow your pride and get over it. Maybe all these little niggly tiffs I've had with people over the years have actually given me perspective or something. Hah.
And today.. was Valentines! Hah! The first year I remember not feeling crap when I didnt get a flower. Because I got a song. Yes a song. When he says I'm beautiful, I believe I am. Aurore straighened my hair last night, and I was feeling popular. Like, in Science, the popular guys copied my thing with the dorky science goggles. That sat on my head like sunglasses. And they half talked to me. lmao. How silly. But I felt remotely equal, you know? And everyone said nice things about my hair..well, lotsa people!! ..a few. ANYHOW. It took Andrew till 5th period. But he said, 'your hair looks nice straight, but I like it curly too'. I dunno. Thats means something to me. Like when he said I was his best friend. My heart kind of jumped.. which is strange. I dont often get that with 'I love you', maybe because it's expected. But yeah.. No flowers or rings. I'm so feminine. I dont want to wear pants this school year. It's so.. unfeminine! But yeah! Went to Eastland, SO many couples, so many big bouquets of roses.. hah! Bought a new (cheap, but Maybelline) nailpolish which looks remotely natural but pretty. Got Andrew something which I wont say what it is in case he reads this, which I bet he doesnt, but it's for a planned day. That I'm planning. Yeah. And then we went and looked at the stuff in SurfDiveNSki which is still half price! I want a Roxy/Ripcurl/Billabong/Rusty/Volcom jumper for SYG this year. Gotta save up money. Saw a ring that fitted. Want to buy it. Walked around.. yeah! Took the bus home and witnessed a nasty car crash. And now I'm home. And thats my day and the days since I posted last. Bleeping big entry.
So Sat and Sun I worked for the 3rd and 4th last time. It was ok. Went to the city to show Aurore round. Pretty unexciting. Took our French students to classes on Monday, which was alright. They think our French teachers suck at French. How funny's that? They hung with the other French kids for most of the rest of the day. BIG THING. There was a disagreement in our group.. that didn't involve me!! I mean, shock horror! I've decided that I'm just a mean bean, there's not.. I don't think, there's one person in our group that I havent argued with at some time, remembering I've known some of them for 4 years now. I hate it, but I'm stubborn, I'm argumentative and I don't insult well. Jo called me cold and frigid today. Lucky for her she was joking! So anyway, Mel probably said something jokingly in English to Megan, who then took it personality and went off to her knight in shining armor obsessed boyfriend who thinks wearing reece shirts is cool, lol, and when Mel likely said sorry or explained she didnt mean it like that, Megan continued to crack the ships and Travis and Matt told her she was wrong. So both were crappy at each other. Here's my opinion. Being the main target of my share of Mel an Megan hate over the years, Mel probably bluntly said some comment about Megan, who can be overly sensitive, and Megan took it badly even though logic would say that Mel lkely didnt mean it that way, Megan went and got Trav and Matt to side with her, cried (I don't cry anymore.. I almost wish I did! The attention the people in our group get when they cry.. Next day everyones ignoring me, I might just cry to test my theory. Scientific/physocological purposes, of course. That sounds really insensative and terrible, but it bothers me. Those who can cry easily get doted on too much. Lack of tears does not equal lack of emotion or feeling), and when Mel came over a little forlorn to probably comfort Megan, she got told that what she did was terribly horribly wrong, and that got her pissed off. Equals angst. And I was stupid about it. Everyone was off moping, and I took that as a chance to be the happy bouncy bubbly one. Wow. I really do sound insensative today. But know that in my happy bubbly-ness I was hoping to influence them to do likewise. And, I could see the triviality of the dispute and tried to make light of that. They won't even remember what it was about in 6 months. So take a big breath, swallow your pride and get over it. Maybe all these little niggly tiffs I've had with people over the years have actually given me perspective or something. Hah.
And today.. was Valentines! Hah! The first year I remember not feeling crap when I didnt get a flower. Because I got a song. Yes a song. When he says I'm beautiful, I believe I am. Aurore straighened my hair last night, and I was feeling popular. Like, in Science, the popular guys copied my thing with the dorky science goggles. That sat on my head like sunglasses. And they half talked to me. lmao. How silly. But I felt remotely equal, you know? And everyone said nice things about my hair..well, lotsa people!! ..a few. ANYHOW. It took Andrew till 5th period. But he said, 'your hair looks nice straight, but I like it curly too'. I dunno. Thats means something to me. Like when he said I was his best friend. My heart kind of jumped.. which is strange. I dont often get that with 'I love you', maybe because it's expected. But yeah.. No flowers or rings. I'm so feminine. I dont want to wear pants this school year. It's so.. unfeminine! But yeah! Went to Eastland, SO many couples, so many big bouquets of roses.. hah! Bought a new (cheap, but Maybelline) nailpolish which looks remotely natural but pretty. Got Andrew something which I wont say what it is in case he reads this, which I bet he doesnt, but it's for a planned day. That I'm planning. Yeah. And then we went and looked at the stuff in SurfDiveNSki which is still half price! I want a Roxy/Ripcurl/Billabong/Rusty/Volcom jumper for SYG this year. Gotta save up money. Saw a ring that fitted. Want to buy it. Walked around.. yeah! Took the bus home and witnessed a nasty car crash. And now I'm home. And thats my day and the days since I posted last. Bleeping big entry.