just whining. don't mind me. ^__^
i should reallys top trying to reach out to someone. i should stop trying to find someone that'll listen and care. someone i fucking trust. i have to stop. i keep getting hurt.
i'm tired and numb today. i hung out with vince and was hoping that online that maybe she could at least listen. but....she called me a whiny bitch and asked if her being my therapist was what i thought she was only good for. so...i stopped. didn't tell her. she wouldn't understand.
so i'm a whiny little bitch.
alright. i can live with that. fine. i'll stop then. i won't talk. i'll stay silent. be numb. pretend. because that's what happens. to hide everything, all my flaws i pretend. i'm not perfect. i'm just hiding. i intimidate people. i'm quiet. i'm hyper whne i want to be. i observe and do better in groups. i hide. i'm weak. i'm ugly. i'm pretty. i hate. i love. i'm nothing.no one. a lie. a whiny bitch.
nothing.
i'm tired and numb today. i hung out with vince and was hoping that online that maybe she could at least listen. but....she called me a whiny bitch and asked if her being my therapist was what i thought she was only good for. so...i stopped. didn't tell her. she wouldn't understand.
so i'm a whiny little bitch.
alright. i can live with that. fine. i'll stop then. i won't talk. i'll stay silent. be numb. pretend. because that's what happens. to hide everything, all my flaws i pretend. i'm not perfect. i'm just hiding. i intimidate people. i'm quiet. i'm hyper whne i want to be. i observe and do better in groups. i hide. i'm weak. i'm ugly. i'm pretty. i hate. i love. i'm nothing.no one. a lie. a whiny bitch.
nothing.