don't get sucked in
i'm starting to not like my job. as i'm there i'm realizing that people there are willing to make it a career and aren't trying to get out. i'm not as outgoing as i thought i'd be. it's one thing when you know everything and can practically memorize thing in your sleep but now it's new products to push and new people to talk to. it's fun and weird and i'm not liking it either. it's weird. i guess i feel guilty for not caring like the rest of them clearly do. i'm bored at work and i'm scared of work.
i know i need to get out of there soon before i get sucked in. i'd feel guilty for leaving so early but it made me realize how much i miss art. otakon has reinforced this feeling. i need to visit stevie more and i need to come up with my story already and just go with it. because i keep trying to make it this perfect thing when in reality the story that just is and organic is probably going to be the best. i should just type and let it go from there.
i know i need to get out of there soon before i get sucked in. i'd feel guilty for leaving so early but it made me realize how much i miss art. otakon has reinforced this feeling. i need to visit stevie more and i need to come up with my story already and just go with it. because i keep trying to make it this perfect thing when in reality the story that just is and organic is probably going to be the best. i should just type and let it go from there.