of tea and time
i'm not sure what i'm posting for. right now i'm in panera with jay being pretentious. i guess i feel like whining about comics. because after reading scott pilgrim and reading an interview from the now dead comic foundry magazine i feel like i have been failing in my pursuits of comic doing. i miss doing comics and i feel this creative block. right now i feel a more urgent need for a job and creating things for the next convention rather than creating my own shit for a web release. for whatever reason i'm just not interested/ready to go out into the real world and try to pitch my ideas out there. right now i want to take my time and post what i feel like when i feel like it. it's a weird sort of logic i guess, and maybe a bit of a lazy reasoning but it's there.
right now i'm struggling with a story. i'm not sure where to start. i was doing some auto-bio comics before and i kind of miss doing them. after a twitter suggestion from amuckfiddy iwas checking out allan comic and realized how awesome and such they are. especially since allan's are a lot shorter and about only a small part of his day. because you know lots more things have happened but he chooses to update once a day about something specific. i dunno.
i guess i only know that making comics is FUN.
i think.
i already mentioned i read scott pilgrim and i have to keep asking myself why is it so hard to combine real life and video games for me? i mean, not in that weird surreal way like scott pilgrim but in just a slice of life way. i feel like video games always come up in conversations all the time. why can't there be a story there!? i feel like all i want to do are these epic 20 volume graphic novels about this one thing, instead of trying for something short and sweet. i need a short story dammit. grah.
though i suppose the first step in all of this would be research. keep writing things and drawing things, that's the goal, right? i have this sort of weird world in my head that have people with like... robot animals around them. like this one girl that has an octopus on her shoulders and a guy that has a bat on his book bag. i kind of like that sort of... companion type stuff. i just don't know what type of story to put it to though. like i feel like my first instinct would be this epic in which it's them against the world, ya know?
rah rah i'm weird.
well whatever. i feel like i could do something with red vs blue because i think that's my biggest nerdy type thing. not sure what i would do with that though. stuff with the charas? just me being a nerd??
whatever, now i guess i'm more concerned with getting my stuff done for the next wave of conventions. the closest one being anime boston since we're getting free tables. i think this is a really good thing considering that the rooms seem to be rather expensive. so i'm concentrating on making buttons at the moment since stevie just got a nice button maker. so i'm gonna make some cute food buttons and some street fighter buttons and some other fandoms like sailor moon. not sure what else. i guess some dr. horrible stuff and some naruto stuff.
real life is real life. there's the job that has yet to be appointed to me. i guess i'll call the temp agency next week about it because the last time i talked to them about it it seemed to be a march job. so it's the beginning of march this sunday and that will be a good time to start poking them about it. current job is ok. lots of hours out of no where which has sort of put a strain i think with me and jay. we're kind of used to spending day after day with each other. so space is like a weird concept to us. and as far as our reltionship goes it's been a weird sort of rollercoaster ride the past few weeks. a lot of tears have been shed. i've never been this emotional with a guy before and it's...weird but it's nice. it's a weird barometer of how i feel. being with him makes me happy. we have crazy, happy, lazy, pretentious days together but we do have those little pit falls. we're working through them. neither of us is perfect but i think that's what makes it better. so, five months is coming up on sunday for me and him and i'm very excited.
other than that i'm waiting impatiently for spring. i miss that warm air. i miss wondering if i should just wear a tshirt out or if it's 'cold' enough for a sweatshirt. i miss going out at night and staying out because it's nice out. plus i miss the city and hopefully if it's warmer i'll find myself going out there to be pretentious more often. cuz i miss stevie and i miss the food and i miss the whole big city atmosphere.
blah blah blah. this post just means i need to update more so i don't barrage any readers with words.
at least i have paragraphs this time.
right now i'm struggling with a story. i'm not sure where to start. i was doing some auto-bio comics before and i kind of miss doing them. after a twitter suggestion from amuckfiddy iwas checking out allan comic and realized how awesome and such they are. especially since allan's are a lot shorter and about only a small part of his day. because you know lots more things have happened but he chooses to update once a day about something specific. i dunno.
i guess i only know that making comics is FUN.
i think.
i already mentioned i read scott pilgrim and i have to keep asking myself why is it so hard to combine real life and video games for me? i mean, not in that weird surreal way like scott pilgrim but in just a slice of life way. i feel like video games always come up in conversations all the time. why can't there be a story there!? i feel like all i want to do are these epic 20 volume graphic novels about this one thing, instead of trying for something short and sweet. i need a short story dammit. grah.
though i suppose the first step in all of this would be research. keep writing things and drawing things, that's the goal, right? i have this sort of weird world in my head that have people with like... robot animals around them. like this one girl that has an octopus on her shoulders and a guy that has a bat on his book bag. i kind of like that sort of... companion type stuff. i just don't know what type of story to put it to though. like i feel like my first instinct would be this epic in which it's them against the world, ya know?
rah rah i'm weird.
well whatever. i feel like i could do something with red vs blue because i think that's my biggest nerdy type thing. not sure what i would do with that though. stuff with the charas? just me being a nerd??
whatever, now i guess i'm more concerned with getting my stuff done for the next wave of conventions. the closest one being anime boston since we're getting free tables. i think this is a really good thing considering that the rooms seem to be rather expensive. so i'm concentrating on making buttons at the moment since stevie just got a nice button maker. so i'm gonna make some cute food buttons and some street fighter buttons and some other fandoms like sailor moon. not sure what else. i guess some dr. horrible stuff and some naruto stuff.
real life is real life. there's the job that has yet to be appointed to me. i guess i'll call the temp agency next week about it because the last time i talked to them about it it seemed to be a march job. so it's the beginning of march this sunday and that will be a good time to start poking them about it. current job is ok. lots of hours out of no where which has sort of put a strain i think with me and jay. we're kind of used to spending day after day with each other. so space is like a weird concept to us. and as far as our reltionship goes it's been a weird sort of rollercoaster ride the past few weeks. a lot of tears have been shed. i've never been this emotional with a guy before and it's...weird but it's nice. it's a weird barometer of how i feel. being with him makes me happy. we have crazy, happy, lazy, pretentious days together but we do have those little pit falls. we're working through them. neither of us is perfect but i think that's what makes it better. so, five months is coming up on sunday for me and him and i'm very excited.
other than that i'm waiting impatiently for spring. i miss that warm air. i miss wondering if i should just wear a tshirt out or if it's 'cold' enough for a sweatshirt. i miss going out at night and staying out because it's nice out. plus i miss the city and hopefully if it's warmer i'll find myself going out there to be pretentious more often. cuz i miss stevie and i miss the food and i miss the whole big city atmosphere.
blah blah blah. this post just means i need to update more so i don't barrage any readers with words.
at least i have paragraphs this time.