What possesses me to right what you have suffered
The title is from VNV Nations “Dark Angle”. Kinda funny huh?
mmmm.. I just made a CD just for listening to while in the shower. Of course at 74 minutes it will last a long time. It is very rare a take a shower longer than 6 minutes. I may go 15 if I am shaving and all that. I love having some type of dancing music in though while I lather up and contort myself around so I can clean and shave every inch of me. (Just for my readers of the female liking variety)
Work has been very relaxing lately. I think everyone is just now realizing that we can be normal again and not running around worried that the other side was going to make fun of us (or even worse the judge!) So now I just worry about keeping my bosses happy so they don’t realize I am a total fraud and actually know nothing. There is no way I am graduating this may, no way I am taking the Bar, and no way I am actually growing up. Except I am. I feel very unsettled right now about all this. I guess it is just so hard for me to picture myself as an actual lawyer. I am very glad I am clerking though. I think I would be much more nervous if I hadn’t seen that what you think the law is and what it really is, well, it is not the same thing.
I just want to know what’s going on. My need for planning is going unfulfilled. So I am planning short term things. This has worked well as I am getting projects done before the due date and have my spring break planned out. I really do look forward to cleaning my house. It is kind of funny though because I am getting up the ladder a little. I don’t get all the crap jobs, and even get to push them off on someone else. Although I feel bad about it. Today I asked the office lady to make envelopes for me after I printed out a cover letter and medical release form from a client. It felt so weird to have someone do something because I asked. I like to know what’s going on and having a plan of attack. I think that is why I like having the Big J’s there, even if they don’t know what is going on they fake it really well. I really do like my job though, I even liked all the crazy trial prep stress out, it made me feel like I was doing something.
I am also really in need of some good dancing this Friday (eep… tomorrow!) we haven’t been out in weeks and while I can dance around my living room all I want, I want to shake my ass around some salivating Goth guys and gals while listening to music in a dark room surrounded by leather and pvc with the most brightly colored portion of any outfit the hair being shown that night. I also want to talk with the people I miss and find some more music to listen to.
I have gotten into looking for music online lately. Unfortunately the miser in me won’t actually let me buy anything but my Amazon wishlist has grown considerably, if you need an idea for a birthday gift VNV Nations “Empires” is currently my lust from there. I also want these guys “Whispers in Rage” CD I would love their Once Beautiful but it is not out yet. I love that I can listen to my music at work.
My book list has gotten an update as well. I am getting into the books Chris got me for Christmas and I have to say he picked some good ones.
Diet is also going well, finally. Of course it not going well was totally my own fault. Can’t expect to lose weight when you are eating like a pig. I have been pretty good though and lost all the weight I gained over the holidays plus a little. It is easier to stay on it when you are seeing some progress though. I broke my normal plateau pretty easy though so maybe it is time. Just have to drink the water.
Well I think that is enough to write about tonight. Do the link in the last entry!
mmmm.. I just made a CD just for listening to while in the shower. Of course at 74 minutes it will last a long time. It is very rare a take a shower longer than 6 minutes. I may go 15 if I am shaving and all that. I love having some type of dancing music in though while I lather up and contort myself around so I can clean and shave every inch of me. (Just for my readers of the female liking variety)
Work has been very relaxing lately. I think everyone is just now realizing that we can be normal again and not running around worried that the other side was going to make fun of us (or even worse the judge!) So now I just worry about keeping my bosses happy so they don’t realize I am a total fraud and actually know nothing. There is no way I am graduating this may, no way I am taking the Bar, and no way I am actually growing up. Except I am. I feel very unsettled right now about all this. I guess it is just so hard for me to picture myself as an actual lawyer. I am very glad I am clerking though. I think I would be much more nervous if I hadn’t seen that what you think the law is and what it really is, well, it is not the same thing.
I just want to know what’s going on. My need for planning is going unfulfilled. So I am planning short term things. This has worked well as I am getting projects done before the due date and have my spring break planned out. I really do look forward to cleaning my house. It is kind of funny though because I am getting up the ladder a little. I don’t get all the crap jobs, and even get to push them off on someone else. Although I feel bad about it. Today I asked the office lady to make envelopes for me after I printed out a cover letter and medical release form from a client. It felt so weird to have someone do something because I asked. I like to know what’s going on and having a plan of attack. I think that is why I like having the Big J’s there, even if they don’t know what is going on they fake it really well. I really do like my job though, I even liked all the crazy trial prep stress out, it made me feel like I was doing something.
I am also really in need of some good dancing this Friday (eep… tomorrow!) we haven’t been out in weeks and while I can dance around my living room all I want, I want to shake my ass around some salivating Goth guys and gals while listening to music in a dark room surrounded by leather and pvc with the most brightly colored portion of any outfit the hair being shown that night. I also want to talk with the people I miss and find some more music to listen to.
I have gotten into looking for music online lately. Unfortunately the miser in me won’t actually let me buy anything but my Amazon wishlist has grown considerably, if you need an idea for a birthday gift VNV Nations “Empires” is currently my lust from there. I also want these guys “Whispers in Rage” CD I would love their Once Beautiful but it is not out yet. I love that I can listen to my music at work.
My book list has gotten an update as well. I am getting into the books Chris got me for Christmas and I have to say he picked some good ones.
Diet is also going well, finally. Of course it not going well was totally my own fault. Can’t expect to lose weight when you are eating like a pig. I have been pretty good though and lost all the weight I gained over the holidays plus a little. It is easier to stay on it when you are seeing some progress though. I broke my normal plateau pretty easy though so maybe it is time. Just have to drink the water.
Well I think that is enough to write about tonight. Do the link in the last entry!