why yes, I am disgruntled
So it seems my mother and I are on opposing side of this family holiday. I am working tonight and hence missing all the things that just my immediate family does together whilst she is working tomorrow and we have oodles of people I don't have the patience to deal with milling around for some christmas cheer that I can't find in my heart right now.
I don't sleep enough. I work too much. I haven't had two real days off in a row in ages and I am just so spent.
MY apartment has incredibly outdated electric sockets which are somewhat useless to me . I also am the proud tenant of a freaking icebox of drafty windows and it's lovely being there all by myself. That and I absolutely loathe winter with all the passion inside me. All this combines ot make me a fairly miserable person these days, and more than a little bit of a giant bitch. I want my damn laptop to be fixed but I am so sick of spending money period.
I also get even less daylight than i used to on a regular basis since i work second shift. I may have to invest in one of those daylight lamps as much as hate to spend the money, I def need somehting non pharmacological to drag me out of this. OK I also need to take my damn vitamins so I have the energy to start working out again and can then start the upward swing, but all i want to to do is sleep these days.
The problem is to do with only having 3 nights off never mind what i do with my days. As such I try to cram everything in those days so i don't really feel rested but always rushed, or when I am alone at my apartment i just get overwhelmed easily with how much is left to do. I really want to get it done. I hate the boxes all over the place. I justw ant to feel settled in . .well that and warm. I would love to feel wamr without having to lean aganst my heater and as a consequence end up burning my leg. Caffeine doesn't help because it's temporary. tonight I def need to take some benadryl and make sure i sleep incredibly well.
Oh also it doesnt help i had to get up at 620 to be able to come to the office early enough to clean it and then work at it untill 12 then back to the apartment to gather things I need for the days i will be away from it then rush back to the parents house where they are doing gifts at 1pm and i have to leave for work by 215pm the latest.
How much does that suck.
I am sort of praying against all odds that i somehow get called off tonight. I'd be the happiest girl in the world even though i lose out on getting time and a half . .it's worth the time with the family. I have some earned time I can use for it instead of working. I'd be only too ecxited to have that happen.
I don't sleep enough. I work too much. I haven't had two real days off in a row in ages and I am just so spent.
MY apartment has incredibly outdated electric sockets which are somewhat useless to me . I also am the proud tenant of a freaking icebox of drafty windows and it's lovely being there all by myself. That and I absolutely loathe winter with all the passion inside me. All this combines ot make me a fairly miserable person these days, and more than a little bit of a giant bitch. I want my damn laptop to be fixed but I am so sick of spending money period.
I also get even less daylight than i used to on a regular basis since i work second shift. I may have to invest in one of those daylight lamps as much as hate to spend the money, I def need somehting non pharmacological to drag me out of this. OK I also need to take my damn vitamins so I have the energy to start working out again and can then start the upward swing, but all i want to to do is sleep these days.
The problem is to do with only having 3 nights off never mind what i do with my days. As such I try to cram everything in those days so i don't really feel rested but always rushed, or when I am alone at my apartment i just get overwhelmed easily with how much is left to do. I really want to get it done. I hate the boxes all over the place. I justw ant to feel settled in . .well that and warm. I would love to feel wamr without having to lean aganst my heater and as a consequence end up burning my leg. Caffeine doesn't help because it's temporary. tonight I def need to take some benadryl and make sure i sleep incredibly well.
Oh also it doesnt help i had to get up at 620 to be able to come to the office early enough to clean it and then work at it untill 12 then back to the apartment to gather things I need for the days i will be away from it then rush back to the parents house where they are doing gifts at 1pm and i have to leave for work by 215pm the latest.
How much does that suck.
I am sort of praying against all odds that i somehow get called off tonight. I'd be the happiest girl in the world even though i lose out on getting time and a half . .it's worth the time with the family. I have some earned time I can use for it instead of working. I'd be only too ecxited to have that happen.