musings on past the week, in non-chronological order
i do not feel like writing. in fact, i haven't felt like writing the whole day. but i cannot stand the blank update journal page on the computer screen in front of me, or the thoughts inside my head demanding to be written down, lest they explode inside of me. sometimes, the words fly out faster than i can type them on my keyboard. other times, like now, they come out slowly and painfully, as in childbirth.
one of my friends says i should write a book, because things happen to me. although i would like to believe that i lead a very interesting life, i also think part of it is seeing something special in the little everyday things, and putting it on paper (or on livejournal).
a few really talented people i know capture moments with photography. i like capturing them with words. to me, writing is like an itch--no matter how hard you don't want to, it won't go away until you give in and scratch it. which makes me wonder if i'll get the chance to write again when i get to med school.
anyhoo, moving along...
friday. nerdy moment of the week. went to up manila because the biology department needed a rep to this quiz bee thingy. shucks, i felt like a high schooler. but the thing went okay. we just commuted, so i got to ride both lrt's. the new one is really nice. the old one's okay--it's not as dirty as everyone says it is, just old. so now i know how to commute to my future school, if ever.
ah, manila...well, most of you know how i feel about manila, with its old, dilapidated buildings squeezed in against each other along the narrow alleys they call roads. manila, with its streets packed with vendors, pedestrians, and tambays at any time of day. while i was on the lrt, i thought that if the train had open windows, i could actually reach out and touch the buildings because they were so close to the tracks. but then, they'd be dirty from all the smoke and pollution.
when i go to med school, i do not want to live in manila. but it's either that or an hour's commute. hmmm, decisions, decisions.
okay, to be fair, i'm sure i'll get to appreciate manila once i study there. but right now, my existing memory recall of the place is just...vivid. sorry lito atienza =(
watched camouflaged's play at the fine arts festival with 24fps, pumpkin_friz, and martin. it was really cute, about baby angels waiting to be born. the little girl angel kinda reminded me of myself, since she was carrying this stuffed doggy the whole time. i was only supposed to stay for that play, but i ended up watching all the other plays with martin. the saddest play at the festival was the one with chino and sabs, about best friends sharing wedding plans. one of them stole the other's entire idea of a dream wedding, from the boquet to the motif to the location to the groom! awww, *teardrops*...
saturday. my first time at kids church! joined searching4eden's team. it was sooOoo much fun! and everyone was really nice. can't wait for next month, when i get to teach already instead of just observe =)
not your usual valentine's day mush (or things i picked up this weekend).
1 Cor 13:4-7 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
cliche? sure. but someone said that if you replace the word "love" with your name, and everything still holds true, then you're ready for a real relationship. because then you'll know how to really love the other, and not just take advantage of them in the name of "love". i've begun to see this as a challenge and a hope for the future--something really wonderful to wait patiently for. and things don't sound so cliche anymore...
tamang tama, i think God has been teaching me patience these past few weeks. haha.
i'm reminded i heard last week which almost made me cry: if deep inside you know you want the very best, why do you settle for second-rate, disposable relationships? so true, especially in an age where people are almost as disposable as clothes. as philo would say: tao yan, may dignidad, respetuhin mo (sorry, tagalog philo for three semesters).
earlier this week.
ginoginogino distributed our itinerary for our summer hongkong/vietnam. i'm really going to hongkong/vietnam! i asked my mom again a couple of days ago (wasn't sure she was serious when she said yes the first time). woohoo!
made new friends. mikki and janinia. if you guys have an lj, add me!
sunday. went to vcf galleria. couldn't bring all of my friends because i didn't have enough space in my car! so i got disappointed for a minute, and then biglang... "God, does this mean you're gonna bless me with a van?"
haha. something to look forward to. although i could never imagine myself driving a van. maybe a c-rv, since i expect to be going to school in baha territory next semester and my mom says i need a higher vehicle. as hyperory would put it, God is so cute =)
had a lovely lovely donut at hot loops, galleria. i forget what it's called, i think chocolate caramel crunch or something. donut topped with oreo bits and super sweet caramel filling at the center. mmmm, sugar rush...
things on my mind right now. might watch a movie on tuesday. don't ask what. basta, i'm really excited...
it's kinda cold outside. a while ago, the wind was howling, as in banging on my door howling. i like the cold =)
why did i get up so early? i was supposed to finish this entry at around midnight, but after qt i fell asleep on my bed, with the lights on. and now i'm awake. anyhoo, things i plan to finish within the day: my part of the physiology lab paper, my immersion paper and report, and this exam i have to write for theguidon (which will help determine my replacement...*teardrops*)
no school today! woohoo! i plan to put my time to good use...