Wow
Wow, I can't believe it has been so long since I have written in this. I have the busiest schedule I have eer had in my life. And life has been the busiest it has ever been. I think I actually have this whole semester planned out for the most part and that is scary. I am really excited for Halloween to come and I have finally decided on my costume. I am going to be an elf. I have already done my hair once to see how it would look and it looked hot. It is pretty much skillfully, patiently done braids. I also bought pointy ears, and now I just have to see if I still have my brides maid dress from my sister's wedding. It was really pretty and I think it would work really well for an elf. I hope my mom will allow me to use it. Sigh...there really isn't that many things that are exciting really in my life. I am treasurer of two clubs, that kind of sucks, but it isn't so bad. The only bad thing is, I have no time for friends, and have had absolutely for dating or anything. I am actually at the point where I think I am fine without anyone in my life. I am okay with sleeping alone.
I guess one of the things that I am having problems with is my sexuality. I told my mom that I am bisexual, and she said that she was shocked, though I don't know why really. I guess I tried to convince everyone else that I was straight to try and convince myself. I find that I am more attracted to men, but there are some women that I like. I am still thinking about my past and realizing that I acted weird around some girls because I liked them. I never ever allowed this kind of thought until I came out to myself and others in ResLife training at Mattole. Well, that's all for now. I wonder what life is going to dish out.
I guess one of the things that I am having problems with is my sexuality. I told my mom that I am bisexual, and she said that she was shocked, though I don't know why really. I guess I tried to convince everyone else that I was straight to try and convince myself. I find that I am more attracted to men, but there are some women that I like. I am still thinking about my past and realizing that I acted weird around some girls because I liked them. I never ever allowed this kind of thought until I came out to myself and others in ResLife training at Mattole. Well, that's all for now. I wonder what life is going to dish out.