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Well..it's been a while since I've last posted or whatever. Life has been alright..pretty good for the most part I guess. I just have...umm..issues. I'm the biggest sociopath..I swear. It's sad..I'm sad. lol. Did nothing all day..nothing all yesterday (the weekend..good job Jen). And why? Because I'm afraid to pick up a damn phone. I'm not sure why. I wish I knew why. I wish I could be normal..but alas..that's one thing I will never be..which can be good and bad. People must think I don't want to hang out with them, but that just isn't it.. I do this all the time...disconnect myself from the world. I guess sometimes I just fear it...for no good reason I'm sure. Guess I figure people are better off without me..which probably isn't necessarily true. I just..don't know. Why do I let myself be this way? My parents and Joe must see it.. But they probably figure if I really wanted to hang out with people I'd pick up the damn phone and/or go out. But somehow I just..don't make things seem that easy to myself. So I end up here all the time..trapped by my own insanity and wrongful thinking. In my own damn prison or something. It's bad enough when parents try to keep you from going out and whatnot...it's a whole lot more wrong when you do it to yourself. I have a problem and I have no idea where to begin to fix it.
If anyone even reads this thing anymore..I just want you to know that even if I don't really seem like I'm there so much...I am still here. I'm around probably more than you know. I haven't disappeared off the face of the earth yet. So if ever you need someone there for you, well..I'll be there.
If anyone even reads this thing anymore..I just want you to know that even if I don't really seem like I'm there so much...I am still here. I'm around probably more than you know. I haven't disappeared off the face of the earth yet. So if ever you need someone there for you, well..I'll be there.