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First off, the girls are HOME! Eve came home on July 2, Lily last Thursday. On Tuesday, Lily weighed 7 pounds 9 ounces and Eve 6 pounds 14 ounces, so they are both getting big! We had a huge ordeal with Lily and her inability to stool on her own for 5 weeks. We had a scare where they were CERTAIN she had Hirschsprung's Disease, not getting into that because I was a wreck for a while and it hurts to think about. I ended up fighting the hospital to get them to let her go home. They weren't satisfied with her eating and weight gain and I TOLD them to stop putting in feeding tubes because she was developing an oral aversion and choking and gagging on anything that they put in her mouth. They did it anyway and I yelled bloody murder. The next day, the discharge nurse and I spoke and they agreed to let her go home the following day because I was able to feed her (better than some of the veteran nurses, she said.) Lily came home and she took a 90 mL bottle in 25 minutes. They struggled for 45 sometimes to get her to take 80. Since, she has progressed to 90 mL bottles in 15 minutes and she sometimes takes 100 or so. SO, I would say she is thriving at home! And we've gotten Eve to stop desating when she eats, so that is amazingly good for her too. She clung to her 1/40th of a liter of o2 for nearly her entire 6 weeks in NICU.
Here they are in their carseats!
And this is Happy Lily!
And Eve eating a tag...
And now the rant:
I have a dilemma now. My MIL has come over EVERY day the last week since Lily has been home and it is driving me nuts. When she is here I get NOTHING accomplished because I'm trying to tell her discreetly that she can't hold the babies non-stop when she is here. Well I asked ERic to tell her everyday is not going to work and she has to tone down her visits. I guess he is an ass and did it like, "Kate doesn't want you here tomrorow..."
SO, now I feel like the bad person. But when she is here, I feel like I have to not hold the babies so that I can make "time" for HER to hold them and hopefully not spoil them. So I hold them hardly at ALL and I waited seven long, stressful weeks to have them home and I feel it isn't FAIR. I shouldn't have to bide THEIR time so that she can hold them and I can't. It isn't fair and I am so angry that I have to even make that decision. But everyday she is here, the girls cry ceaselessly all night because they want to be held. And I'm getting stressed out because of it.
Am I wrong? Babies can' tbe held all the time or they will get used to it and not want to sleep any other way. And IIIII want to be able to hold them, so to not hold them too much I have to tone down the number of visitors coming to hold them. My own mother, who is staying with us, hardly holds them. And she is here all the time. But she KNOWS that it hurts me to have to lessen my time holding them right now. So she refrains, even though I'm sure she wants to also.
I like his mother, they have helped us a lot, but I feel like I have to give up my tmie with the girls so she can have her time when she comes over.
And unlike my mother who is helping me do laundry, clean, etc, without having to have me hover over her like a taskmaster -- his mom doesn't have any get-up and go and she doesn't do a THING here. She said she wants to come help clean, but she needs her hand held like a child. And that isn't realy helping me! So 90 percent of the time she is here she is holding or feeding babies. And quite frankly, I want to feed my babies because I have to do it at 3 a.m. by myself so I would like to have a little more practice during the day when I'm awake.
I don't know, I am just going nuts here. I'm about to get in my car and just drive. Just go somewhere. Just get away. But I hate leaving because I want to spend every waking moment with the babies I fought so hard to bring home.
Here they are in their carseats!
And this is Happy Lily!
And Eve eating a tag...
And now the rant:
I have a dilemma now. My MIL has come over EVERY day the last week since Lily has been home and it is driving me nuts. When she is here I get NOTHING accomplished because I'm trying to tell her discreetly that she can't hold the babies non-stop when she is here. Well I asked ERic to tell her everyday is not going to work and she has to tone down her visits. I guess he is an ass and did it like, "Kate doesn't want you here tomrorow..."
SO, now I feel like the bad person. But when she is here, I feel like I have to not hold the babies so that I can make "time" for HER to hold them and hopefully not spoil them. So I hold them hardly at ALL and I waited seven long, stressful weeks to have them home and I feel it isn't FAIR. I shouldn't have to bide THEIR time so that she can hold them and I can't. It isn't fair and I am so angry that I have to even make that decision. But everyday she is here, the girls cry ceaselessly all night because they want to be held. And I'm getting stressed out because of it.
Am I wrong? Babies can' tbe held all the time or they will get used to it and not want to sleep any other way. And IIIII want to be able to hold them, so to not hold them too much I have to tone down the number of visitors coming to hold them. My own mother, who is staying with us, hardly holds them. And she is here all the time. But she KNOWS that it hurts me to have to lessen my time holding them right now. So she refrains, even though I'm sure she wants to also.
I like his mother, they have helped us a lot, but I feel like I have to give up my tmie with the girls so she can have her time when she comes over.
And unlike my mother who is helping me do laundry, clean, etc, without having to have me hover over her like a taskmaster -- his mom doesn't have any get-up and go and she doesn't do a THING here. She said she wants to come help clean, but she needs her hand held like a child. And that isn't realy helping me! So 90 percent of the time she is here she is holding or feeding babies. And quite frankly, I want to feed my babies because I have to do it at 3 a.m. by myself so I would like to have a little more practice during the day when I'm awake.
I don't know, I am just going nuts here. I'm about to get in my car and just drive. Just go somewhere. Just get away. But I hate leaving because I want to spend every waking moment with the babies I fought so hard to bring home.