Alex
Just right now I think it hit me why I haven't been nervous about the waiting in between interviews to hear the next decision. I have a much bigger date looming close by and that compared to anything else is just so much more important. Actually, I have several dates that are rapidly approaching. Alex would have turned 23 on May 14th. Still a baby. Everybody says the "firsts" are the most difficult and I have found that so far, this proves to be true. Unfortunately, the one year mark follows closely behind on May 31st. Yes, folks, this month is turning out to be one barrel of monkeys. With those things in mind, I apologize ahead of time for any inappropriate things I may say or do including, but not limited to, random acts of crying, snippyness, general anger, difficulty being around people, the need to be around people (read: clingy).
In the last year, I have been a bad friend (although, one may argue that it's been going on longer than that), an emotional wreck (just cause you can't see it doesn't mean it's not there), and an alcoholic (an exaggeration but the desire may be there :) ) among other things. I'm working on the first one and I figure the other two will sort themselves out. I know a year seems like a really, really long time but it isn't. I appreciate the support more than I can ever express in words. I hope your patience hasn't been tried too much because as much as I wanted the year mark to signal some sort of closure, I can clearly see now that it won't.
I love my baby brother and I know that he is safe and happy.
In the last year, I have been a bad friend (although, one may argue that it's been going on longer than that), an emotional wreck (just cause you can't see it doesn't mean it's not there), and an alcoholic (an exaggeration but the desire may be there :) ) among other things. I'm working on the first one and I figure the other two will sort themselves out. I know a year seems like a really, really long time but it isn't. I appreciate the support more than I can ever express in words. I hope your patience hasn't been tried too much because as much as I wanted the year mark to signal some sort of closure, I can clearly see now that it won't.
I love my baby brother and I know that he is safe and happy.