Safe Journey, Brother!
I keep thinking that if I stare at the screen long enough the turmoil inside of me will form words that I can then type out. I've been staring for too long already. The words break down to this: Alex deploys tomorrow. That says it all and doesn't say much at all. He called me today at 1:00 on the work phone. The time shouldn't be important but right now it is. Be around your phone at 11:30 tomorrow, he said to me without explanation. The last possible chance he'll have to call for a while. We both got teary before changing the subject to how we're adrenaline junkies and the things we love to do to cause that rush. He plans to get certified so that he can sky dive solo when he comes back. We were cut off as I was telling him he should get scuba certified instead so he can come diving with me. The silence screamed, choked me, and robbed me of something precious. I held my breath until the urge to cry was subdued.