May 25, 2005 11:38
She doesn't see the beauty in herself that they see. Her life always manages to feel incomplete. No matter how hard she tries or how many mistakes she makes, she always wants to fall asleep and never be awake. Its just seems easier this way. How many more times can it happen before its too late?
No one around her really understands what shes going through. Maybe that's why she is so confused about what to do. Sadness and solitude are so common to her these days. Why is she scared to get help? Why is she so afraid? She surrounds herself with unhealthy relationships that do nothing but bring her down even more. Shes even worse now, worse than before.
I wrote this this morning. I was feeling really down.