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I don't know if it's harder to think that Shane's an asshole and deal with him not being a part of my life
or deal with the fact that he's still Shane, and I have to give him up anyway.
I just keep having to remind myself: I will fall in love with people that don't deserve it, and it will hurt a lot more than this. And I will love a lot of other people who are deserving, and won't work out regardless (which will also hurt, I'm assuming, about as much as this). But I will find someone who deserves me. I will find someone who will be right for me, even better for me, and they will love me, when the time comes for it. And it won't take away from the other people who will love me or those who have already loved me.
So all I can do for right now is try to move on. I've already got a basic game plan, which will hopefully cure the pain which I am sure to amass in my many years of boy-scouting to come. Of course it's not complete, but I feel pretty good about it.
1) Let friends console you, even if it means admitting that you're too weak to do this on your own.
2) Find cute boys. (or girls, if that's what I get into, (though it's doubtlful, one should never say never))
3) Use them to make myself feel better. (important note: one night stands will make you feel trashy later. avoid.)
4) Start the cycle over.
Eventually the cyle will end and I'll either find that I'm strong enough to be on my own and/or will find someone that is my someone.
Or I'll become super invincible like a robot or a super tite ninja and it won't matter anymore. That's of course the most optimal alternative. We'll see.
or deal with the fact that he's still Shane, and I have to give him up anyway.
I just keep having to remind myself: I will fall in love with people that don't deserve it, and it will hurt a lot more than this. And I will love a lot of other people who are deserving, and won't work out regardless (which will also hurt, I'm assuming, about as much as this). But I will find someone who deserves me. I will find someone who will be right for me, even better for me, and they will love me, when the time comes for it. And it won't take away from the other people who will love me or those who have already loved me.
So all I can do for right now is try to move on. I've already got a basic game plan, which will hopefully cure the pain which I am sure to amass in my many years of boy-scouting to come. Of course it's not complete, but I feel pretty good about it.
1) Let friends console you, even if it means admitting that you're too weak to do this on your own.
2) Find cute boys. (or girls, if that's what I get into, (though it's doubtlful, one should never say never))
3) Use them to make myself feel better. (important note: one night stands will make you feel trashy later. avoid.)
4) Start the cycle over.
Eventually the cyle will end and I'll either find that I'm strong enough to be on my own and/or will find someone that is my someone.
Or I'll become super invincible like a robot or a super tite ninja and it won't matter anymore. That's of course the most optimal alternative. We'll see.