better
so I am feeling better, not as good as I'd like but i think i have a ways to go to get there!
I went to my Behavioral health appointment today.
You never get anything done on the 1st appointment of anything i swear. but thats ok I am doing something. My depression is going to get out of control on meds or not. I am stopping it NOW. I refuse to do that to Xavier. everything i feel he feeds off of. he's to perfect to ruin.
Next is for me & Chris to work on our issues. No way our marriage is in trouble but it could use a little help. he says things that hurt my feelings & he says ohh i'm joking then says it again as if the 1st time i told him i didn't like that wasn't enough. MEN. what the hell is wrong with you! then i know i get really mean sometimes i snap at him like he's a 10 YO blowing up stuff.. but he's a 32 YO man..not a 10 YO
and threw all this Xavier is such a happy little guy. I mean. I'm not all gloom all the time i just kinda feel eegghh me & Chris avoid fighting if we can. but it builds up you know. Last night Chris was holding Xavier & he was asleep (Xavier was) & Chris & I stared at him cuz he keep laughing in his sleep THERE IS NOTHING CUTER THAN A BABY LAUGHING.....IN HIS SLEEP!
well not to much else... working at my moms building cleaning this NASTY apartment that this gamer loser (ok not ALL gamers are losers) lived in..it's so gross. he had duct tape on the tile in the bathroom. & when i pulled it off the tile came with it.
anyways I think i am FINALLY tired. going to curl up with my baby.
Xavier Loves Carrots!
I went to my Behavioral health appointment today.
You never get anything done on the 1st appointment of anything i swear. but thats ok I am doing something. My depression is going to get out of control on meds or not. I am stopping it NOW. I refuse to do that to Xavier. everything i feel he feeds off of. he's to perfect to ruin.
Next is for me & Chris to work on our issues. No way our marriage is in trouble but it could use a little help. he says things that hurt my feelings & he says ohh i'm joking then says it again as if the 1st time i told him i didn't like that wasn't enough. MEN. what the hell is wrong with you! then i know i get really mean sometimes i snap at him like he's a 10 YO blowing up stuff.. but he's a 32 YO man..not a 10 YO
and threw all this Xavier is such a happy little guy. I mean. I'm not all gloom all the time i just kinda feel eegghh me & Chris avoid fighting if we can. but it builds up you know. Last night Chris was holding Xavier & he was asleep (Xavier was) & Chris & I stared at him cuz he keep laughing in his sleep THERE IS NOTHING CUTER THAN A BABY LAUGHING.....IN HIS SLEEP!
well not to much else... working at my moms building cleaning this NASTY apartment that this gamer loser (ok not ALL gamers are losers) lived in..it's so gross. he had duct tape on the tile in the bathroom. & when i pulled it off the tile came with it.
anyways I think i am FINALLY tired. going to curl up with my baby.
Xavier Loves Carrots!