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[gwen_is_hot]

I feel like I can actually relax now. Although my best friend is gone which is very sad. I don't feel hostile or upset, I guess that's because no one is around me really. I feel sort of sick. I dont want to move really. So I think I'm really going to try to lose weight this time again. I wanna look like the girls in the movies and posters. I wanna be someone that others admire. Is that really so much to ask for? I guess it is but the difference is that I'm going to do it without surgery's or fake crap except for maybe haircolor and a little makeup...ehh, I like natural stuff better some times. I want to either start my own business so I can dress however I want to or work somewhere that doesnt give a care or even promotes it. Myabe I can learn to pierce people. They make good money, yep. I want to be a bartender but the problem with that is that I'm only damn 18. I kind of feel funny lately about
being in a relationship, kind of like I'm confused about it. I love him and have shown that but I think him not showing me the whole time kind of made me give up a little so now I'm slipping. I dunno what to do. I still love him but just feel a little funny. maybe its indegestion, lol. well heres some pics.



















thats all =]