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One thing crossed off my list. One step closer.
I'm not sure what to say. I have so much to do but I am procrastinating.
It's been one week today since he flew out. I'm coping, but I miss him a lot. It feels so much longer than a week.
It is strange to find a man who talks openly about his emotions... I find it odd I guess, because I'm so used to being shut out. Now I feel like I'm the one who's holding back. Not that I am holding back much, I am just... filtering things internally before I say them... too many times I have been hurt when I have spoken my heart. I am slowly opening up.
In retrospect, a couple of relationships I've had in the past which were great and ended due to unfortunate circumstances, I can't help but think that if we had communicated our real feelings, opened up to each other, things might have been different. But they're not different. You can't change a leopard's spots.
I am consciously trying to open up more to him, it is tough but sometimes you just have to lay down your heart. Take the risk. It is that vulnerability that makes you closer...
Anyway I have work soon so I'm going to shuffle off and get ready.
I'm not sure what to say. I have so much to do but I am procrastinating.
It's been one week today since he flew out. I'm coping, but I miss him a lot. It feels so much longer than a week.
It is strange to find a man who talks openly about his emotions... I find it odd I guess, because I'm so used to being shut out. Now I feel like I'm the one who's holding back. Not that I am holding back much, I am just... filtering things internally before I say them... too many times I have been hurt when I have spoken my heart. I am slowly opening up.
In retrospect, a couple of relationships I've had in the past which were great and ended due to unfortunate circumstances, I can't help but think that if we had communicated our real feelings, opened up to each other, things might have been different. But they're not different. You can't change a leopard's spots.
I am consciously trying to open up more to him, it is tough but sometimes you just have to lay down your heart. Take the risk. It is that vulnerability that makes you closer...
Anyway I have work soon so I'm going to shuffle off and get ready.