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And so that unwritten (Livejournal-wise) chapter of my life came to an end. But not entirely...a seed grows within. And for this I gave up that which could have been the most important relationship of my life thus far. Some things are more important than romantic love bollocks. In fact many things are, and perhaps it is good that I was given an exit when I was, because goodness knows it already felt more like anything close to real "sorrow" than any previous relationship finishing before. So imagine what it would have been like had it lasted another 6 months, and then he would have said what he did.
Nevertheless, it was no surprise.
But I can't say I don't miss the feel of his body and the way he smelled.
Why is it that the mind and companionship of someone is so much easier to let go of than the memories of that person's body?
And the thought of someone else touching it.
Perhaps there is Karma after all, and this is exactly what I have deserved.
Besides, I chose my man, and I knew what I got myself into. And luckily my feelings are equally clear now. None of that waffling around like there was after Luke and I broke up.
Nevertheless, it was no surprise.
But I can't say I don't miss the feel of his body and the way he smelled.
Why is it that the mind and companionship of someone is so much easier to let go of than the memories of that person's body?
And the thought of someone else touching it.
Perhaps there is Karma after all, and this is exactly what I have deserved.
Besides, I chose my man, and I knew what I got myself into. And luckily my feelings are equally clear now. None of that waffling around like there was after Luke and I broke up.