my anticipated return. ;)
Alright. I know I have been out of the game for a while. I am back. For good this time, hopefully. I was cleaning my room and came across a bunch of emo poetry from a while ago. I decided to post it so u all can relish in my mad writing skills. Or lack thereof. U love me.
She closes her eyes
He appears with a vengeance
Like a dam burst under pressure;
Memories flood her with cold precision
Billowing around her
Engulfing her every thought
It was him
It would
…always…
Be him.
It hurt her to think she couldn’t remember
His voice
It hurt even more when she could
It rang in her ears
Then silence
He invaded her
Like he always used to
It came and went
She would have better days
But when it came back
It longed for blood.
Her countenance somber when recollecting his words
Sweet, beautiful, serenades,
Of pleasure
Of pain
Of lies, deceit, and hate
Of passion
Of lust
Of not giving two fucks.
She questions herself now
Her worth
Her lack thereof
Would she ever be enough?
Would she even get the chance?
It wasn’t important now
She wanted to forget
Longing for utter indifference
Because peace of mind was far too intangible
She would settle
Like she a l w a y s did
For numbness
For a welcome change of pace
For feeling nothing at all
Rather than
Everything all at once
She doesn’t know what she wants
She never did, that was the issue
She is certain this wasn’t what she had envisioned
Yearning to be free…
I would know
… for she is me …
~~~~~~~~~~
hello daddy,
how i miss you so daddy.
would you even listen?
have u ever heard me?
well daddy,
so many thing i wish i could say, daddy.
would it make a difference?
would i feel any better?
would you care either way?
see daddy,
you're now someone else's daddy.
are you there for them?
do they count on you like i used to?
are you despondent to them as well?
now, daddy,
i find i need a daddy.
when i call, you're not there..
too busy ignoring your other kids, right daddy?
will i ever be worthy of your attention?
was i ever worthy?
have you ever heard me?
will you ever listen?
when you finally do,
i will have nothing to say.
too far gone... its far too late...
~~~~~~~~~
the walls are closing in now,
can you feel it?
my screams begin to sound now,
can you hear it?
of course you cant
you never could
how dare i ask these things of you
hard to breath now
you were all of me then
i will never see how
i made it through then
memories
your resonating light
now engulfed by darkness
the melody of your voice
now rivals nails down a chalkboard
i still linger here
awaiting your transformation
with baited breath
we will die like this you know?
did you get what you wanted?
are you happy now?
surrounded by your conquests...
YOU WERE THE REALEST FRAUD
... MY TRUEST LIE ...
(*(*(*(*(*(...by all means take all of me whatevers left will surely rot...)*)*)*)*)*
~~~~~~~
my demise
your victory
your silent lies
my blind beleif
did you get what you came for
cus ive nothing left to give
you took all of me and still wanted more
enough will never suffice
you go through life
utterly unscathed
we have to beleive it will come backt o you
it still haunts me through and through
my weakness gave way to your strength
you've no one but yourself to thank
youre cold inside
a mere matter of time
sevenfold
the devil wears a dark suit